i r George.

The Six White gathering 2012

2012-01-30T11:50:00.000+08:00

Here comes another gathering for 2012.

Me.. my friend said I'm kpop wannabe.

Megaupload burys in satin

2012-01-25T11:46:00.004+08:00

I have no idea why US government is taking legal action against all these file-sharing-company, just like youtube if any copyright holder is unhappy with the content they may just request for removal of the video, same thing goes to Megaupload. Come on, public file sharing is prevalent, due to the advancement of technology we are enabled to share file easily through these giant company and not just p2p-torrent. Now this shit happened, people gonna hate it.

Megaupload is dead.

Filesonic disable their sharing function.

so, who's next?

SOURCE:
Megaupload case triggers online storage site filesonic to disable file sharing

2012-01-22T02:20:00.002+08:00

Few months back, I was taking part of singing contest and I got really nervous on the queue. A girl who came to me telling me that I was on the wrong queue cause I was assigned into another audition room. Since she was standing beside me so we started our conversation. She was quite an alright person and we both shared a lot in commons. After the audition ended I didn't manage to keep her in touch, but a week after I found her facebook on some fanclub which was relevant to her job. I had to admit I got a crush on her, in fact without realizing I developed feelings towards her. Every time when I wanted to talk about relationship things she would always go off-topic and morphed the conversation into common things like we always talk about. Nothing much special happened at the end, we both were just like normal friends that talked about the things that happen in our daily life.

As time pass by, we both got busy with our own things apart over the months and we didn't chat for quite some times. Recently it's been a whirlwind of turbulent emotions where I looked at her Facebook, those pictures of herself with her boyfriend, laughing and smiling, I was confused of whether I should have felt happy or sad. On the lighter note, yes, I should have felt happy cause they are such a happy couple. But somehow these happy photos are still constantly reminding me of her that I have lost someone really special, someone that means a lot to me.

I almost meet new people everyday because of my profession, many people come into my life and some leave it but the only one who left their footprint on my heart is definitely someone who hits me on the first sight, not in term of appearance but everything including personal trait and so on. Life today is not like 20 years back where I think every thing in life happens like fairytale, every story has a happy ending. It's no more. I've been went through all those dreadful moments all by myself, when I am thrilled that I achieved something remarkable, at the end of the day who cares anyway I'm still the only one happy with.

Girl, I might not be the one you're expected for, but I'm certain that I could love you 100% than anyone else. If god allows me to roll back the time, I hope it's not too late to express my feeling to you.

I'm just an ordinary person who wants to date somebody ordinary.

2012-01-04T19:20:00.002+08:00

It`s funny how hello always ends with a goodbye,
it`s funny how good memories can start to make you cry.
It`s funny how forever never really seems to last,
it`s funny how much you`d lose if you forgot about your past.
It`s funny how friends can just leave you when you`re down,
it`s funny how when you need someone they`re never around.
It`s funny how people change and think they`re so much better,
it`s funny how many lies can be packed in one "love letter".
It`s funny how people forgive even though they can't forget,
it`s funny how one night can contain so much regret.
It`s funny how ironic life turns out to be.

Merry Christmas to whoever bump into my blog :)

2011-12-25T12:34:00.002+08:00

In traditional way when it comes to Christmas, everyone should have fun with the Christmas-gift-exchange-game. Just noticed that I've been celebrating Christmas for 24 years but never having to play this kind of game and now it becomes materialized.

LINK

Yeah, we went to K Box Karaoke for our Christmas gift exchange game.

LINK

It's such a meaningful party I've ever attended through all these years lol.

PS: Merry Christmas to those who have forwarded their Christmas greeting to me via whatsapp. Have a blast! :)

Limpeh is back

2011-12-08T12:02:00.008+08:00

It's been a while I haven't been blogging as usual. Life has been ups and downs over these past few months, so much sad things to say, I wrote many entries but ended up saving them as drafts. So many drafts I wished to complete but afraid who knows some people might accidentally bump into my blog and read my ridiculous life and they may think I'm stupid. So at the end of the day I still presence all these incomplete draft.

To keep my blog alive, I'm gonna upload whole bunch of photos I spent at Lundu, Gunung Gading during my semester break. This is a very adventurous place where you can take a hike right up to peak of mountain and enjoy its waterfall and stream.

(Pardon my noob auto-white balance setting)

Best photo of the day.

My friends claimed that their bodies were totally out of shape so they warned me not to upload them to Facebook, I promised them, but I didn't promise them not to publish it on my blog.

This is the last stop of our hike, view is beautiful and I felt so close to nature.

I'd burnt quite huge amount of calories after the hike but I restored them back by having this..

Yeah, Buffet at Hartz Chicken.

Facebook Slidebar Chat Disabler

2011-08-28T14:54:00.002+08:00

To those who find the new SideBar Chat is irritating and desperately wanted to old chat back, here are some steps that you can restore it back

1. Visit this website http://www.sidebardisabler.net/ .

2. Click and install it to your firefox.

3. After you have installed the Chat Sidebar Disabler, restart your firefox, then you are done. In addition, also make sure "FB Chat Sidebar Disabler 1.8-ffbuild1" is enabled in your Firefox Add-ons Manager.

Here is another official alternative link for the old chat: https://www.facebook.com/presence/popout.php .

PS: Why facebook has to come out such dumb innovative work and get everyone hated? Such new chat is not flexible at all, you can't select specific people you want to appear in, you can't create friend list either, what's the use of it?

Ops, check on the Help Discussion section, the prolific use of f word is going to screw Mark up.

Hou mucxh do eu luv me?

2011-08-23T11:11:00.003+08:00

Dota 2 "The International" has come to an end

2011-08-22T14:35:00.003+08:00

Match Results:

Placing	Team	Price
1	NaVi	$1,000,000
2	EHOME	$250,000
3	Scythe.SG	$150,000
4	MYM	$80,000
5	M5	$35,000
6	iG	$35,000
7	OK.Nv.Int	$25,000
8	MiTh.Trust	$25,000

After Chinese dota has dominated ESWC 2010, the world has come to realize China has become the most important feature in competitive dota. EHOME is no doubt everyone's idolized team throughout 2010 but after the ruthless change of roaster, two players who play an important role in the team have left. Legendary team is no longer a Legendary team without their best players - "burning" and "J". EHOME is my favorite team ever since I play competitive dota, I learnt a lot from them in term of laning, gank and late carry, they executed very well. I think this time "The Intentional" they could have done way better if they remained the same roaster as in ESWC. Anyway, I still think that Asian dota is the best. Someday, I hope old LGD and ehome could come back and once again dominate the world.

Source - gosu

PS: OMFG, $1M? I would have gone to Japanese for vacation one month..

Wilber Pan @ Spring 2011

2011-08-21T11:13:00.000+08:00

Not his die hard fan anyway, just went to entertain the event.

Wilber rocks! yeah.

2011-08-18T13:16:00.000+08:00

Just updated my "About me" page.

:)

Random quota from randam page of the day

2011-08-11T00:31:00.001+08:00

With every moment we share, every smile, every touch, I become more certain that in you, I've found something I've looked for a very long time. I don't know what the future holds, but I do know how much your love excites me and how happy I feel when I'm with you. And, from this day forward, that's more than enough.

2011-08-01T23:07:00.001+08:00

I'm not sure why I always have the initiative to keep this blog alive even though no one is reading it. Does this actually mean the more I blog, the more unhappy things occurred in my life? Perhaps. I chose to pour all these frustrations and sadness into my private cyberspace and somehow, I turned to out be much happier. Everyone changes with time - everyday - and those blogs where I used to read they are now no longer active, e.g. take a look at kennysia, he used to blog very frequent but now, not anymore. Sweatlee, one of my favorite blogs I used to read a lot, she blogged about her life happennings and especially those days where she surprised her boyfriend by traveling all the way just to catch a glimpse of him, how romantic isn't it? I began not so fascinated with her blog ever since she broke up with her boyfriend, she was not covering much about her real life things rather than those random-camwhoring-post. Too bad, everyone is like getting really busy with their actual life but then I'm still living in the comfort zone, is it a good thing to say? I guess both yes and no. I could fly like a bird everyday and my time is flexible, I could karaoke until midnight even during weekday it won't kill my energy as I have very enough sleep everyday. Bad thing is, I can't afford to buy gadget something like DSLR camera or can't go traveling either. Well, life is good, definitely, but sometimes it isn't, is when I have to face my downfall for some reasons.

Hmm.. I think I'll re-construct an entire new template for my blog that suits my emotion.

Well, it's time to proceed my java assignment, been brainstorming for hundreds lines of codes now my brain turned malfunction zz.

Bye to this quietness of lonely and empty cyberspace.

Big tits individual is definitely beneficial in seeking job.

2011-07-22T18:02:00.001+08:00

Translate:

Interview

Picture 1 : Do you not have any experience, how could we hire you?

Picture 2: Not bad, interesting resume.. Hehe!

Picture 3: We need a potential candidate, we need you lar!

Picture 4: Please come to work tomorrow~

No one is there to give you a lift

2011-07-20T00:31:00.003+08:00

If you have an intimate longlife relationship but then eventually you figured out both of you can't move on because of communication barriers, would you give up? If you just have a new relationship, or perhaps a long lasting relationship but nothing much special happens, both of you just go on monotonous life and everyday same pattern and same routine, the relationship doesn't look as beautiful as the first time you built, would you still want to move on? If you are in a relationship but you found out that your loved ones doesn't love you anymore, but you love her so much, would you try all the best to hold this love as possible? If yes, what's the point? What if you let go, will you regret? If a relationship that comes with a lot of what-ifs, will you still move on? Why love just can't be simple - you love me, I love you - and no love problems..and nobody get hurts.

I always put so much efforts when it comes to getting a girl I like, but at the end it doesn't turn out to be positive. Of course, sure I can move on. But actually i can't move on, every failure plummeted my confident and my emotional history has been engraved deep down somewhere in my heart. I always hate when i saw couple walk by not because of jealousy thing but it reminds me of her. Falling in love is like falling into drug addiction, I begin to love her trait, her daily basic, daily life activity, slowly and without realizing, she has occupied my life. Every story has a start and an end. When it comes to an end, I have to start over new phrase. Forgetting happy memory is so much tougher than re-loving someone else, perhaps someday I might meet my special someone but happy memories would always remain. One way that i feel so happy, so comfortable, we get along great, do everything together, now I'm alone. Where do I begin?

Kuala Lumpur Taxi Scam

2011-06-27T15:28:00.001+08:00

As the title above, I had been reading a lot of individual blogs criticizing that taking taxi from KL airport to KL are much more expensive than a night stay in a decent hotel. I'm not a regular traveler but from my understanding, from KL airport to KL central should be roughly RM80, and most people would prefer taxi to use meter but that is totally wrong. For my case, we were in KLCC and wanted to take taxi to Medeka Stadium which would probably cost RM20, since there was a taxi counter located on the main entrance so without thinking twice my friend bought the premier taxi couple. The moment were stepped into the taxi we had already been charged for RM6 as upfront fees which got us really pissed off but at last we didn't bother, on the journey we started to realize the meter was uncommonly running rapidly fast where 5 minutes from the route had already cost us RM10, there was nothing much we can do until we reached the destination. The price of the journey was RM58, ridiculously I felt like argue with him but thinking far ahead, we had only one hour left to head for Jolin's concert, due to time constraint we just had to ignore him and move on. He told us that if a concert is launched, there may be roadblocks within the vicinity as for our convenient he dropped us on the way, since the walking distance wasn't a problem so we proceed. Worst thing is, by the time we reached the place it wasn't the destination we requested, never mind we stayed calm and took another taxi.

The next day I met another friendly taxi driver who spared me little advices on how to deal with this kind of situation. He told me, "most taxi scammers in KL are Indians, you have to take extra awareness when it comes to Indian. If you took taxi that used meter then you should keep your eyes open on the meter whether it is running extremely normal or not, and also make sure the taxi driver is not driving you around in circles. It's advisable not to use meter cause you can always bargain for the price of destination before you step into the taxi". What if I have been scammed and I don't want to pay anything on the spot? You guys will end up a fight and who is the last man standing, win. But ended up a fight does it worth?" For me yes, I would wanna see how bad the one who get me punched on his face. Based on my experience, to make thing easy without having a fight, just tell the taxi driver to meet you Taxi center(where complaints are made), and capture picture/video for the meter accordingly on the spot if possible. What if the taxi center doesn't take any appropriate action? Simple, head to DAP office and see what they can do for you. Anyway, in conclusion, FUCK YOU KL INDIAN TAXI DRIVERS, scamming doesn't reflect very well on your upbringing. I hope you would feel sorry for your own conscience when it comes to scamming peoples' hard earned money.

2011-06-25T12:10:00.001+08:00

I have goose bumps after watching this, because penetrating through eyes of them, i saw fairy tales, i saw happy endings, i saw they will live happily forever and ever, i also saw something that.. the miserable part of my life.

Fattening breakfast

2011-06-22T13:16:00.001+08:00

Hokkien Style Kolo Mee @ Yeow Kee Kopitiam, Premier 101.

Beef Noodle @ Yeow Kee Kopitiam, Premier 101.

Fried Bee Hoon @ Vegetarian Restaurant, Petanak.

Chicken Rice @ Vegetarian Restaurant, Petanak.

Wantan Noodle @ Taipei 101, BDC.

Beef Noodle @ Simpang Tiga Kopitiam.

Wantan @ Yeow Kee Kopitiam, Premier 101.

Steam Duck Noodle @ Yeow Kee Kopitiam, Premier 101.

Penang Prawn Noodle @ Little Penang Kafe, KLCC.

Penang Style Lasi Lemak? @ Little Penang Kafe, KLCC

Margherita @ Michelangelo, Pavilion KL.

Spashetti Aglio Olio (Prawn) @ Michelangelo, Pavilion KL.

Udon Vegetarian Noodle @ Vegetarian Restaurant, Bukit Bintang KL.

Roasted Dusk Noodle with a bowl of prawn-made Wantan Soup @ Food Court, Pavilion KL.

Stop Fattening me.

Warcraft 3 auto-minimize issue in Windows 7 32/64

2011-06-19T02:06:00.005+08:00

Do you encounter such error that everytime you Alt + Tap to minimize your warcraft 3, but when you are about to maximize it, you're not able to do so. This is frustrating. I'd been searching for the solutions all around the Internet and I cannot find any site that is specifically providing solutions to resolve such error. Obviously, Windows XP has the optimum compatibility but when I switched to Windows 7 64bits this error was constantly occurring. Not too bad at the end, I figured how this worked.

1. Right Click on the shortcut icon(similarly, you can also Right Click on the precise folder of Warcraft 3 that contained Frozen Throne.exe) and go to property.

2. Go to the Compatibility tab, and make sure you place a tick on Disable desktop composition, and then click OK.

There you go, your Warcraft 3 should be working fine right now.

2011-06-14T23:49:00.001+08:00

Is it ok to love somebody who you know would never love you back and never appreciate you?
Is it ok to feel happy when I see couples who are happy?
Is it ok to feel sad when I see couples who are happy?
Is it ok to fool myself from knowing the truth?
Is it ok to go to a secluded place to grieve?
It is ok not to smile everyday?
Is it ok to fake a smile?
Is it ok to tell lies that I'm happy but in fact I am not?
Is it ok to cry when my mind is packed with stress, sadness and sorrow?
Is it ok to feel sad when everyone has their merry way but I don't?
Is it ok to un-love someone you loved so much?
Is it ok to let time heals the wounds?
Is it ok not always happy?
Is it ok not to mend the broken heart but move on?
Is it ok to hate idle time?
Is it ok to forget everything I dream about?
Is it ok to keep doing whatever I can to pass time by?
Is it ok to feel lonely sometimes?

Jolin's Myself 2011 Malaysia Concert

2011-06-13T16:27:00.003+08:00

Let the photos speak.

2011-05-28T20:21:00.001+08:00

Everyone does the same.

Ain't we?

Shit people a lot nowadays

2011-05-24T21:29:00.006+08:00

There are 4 unique persons I met in my life.

THE ONE WHO LIKES TO DO MLM. So, it's obvious when you come across "MLM" you would think of Amway and yes, I'd been into this industry for like few months and then i quit. Reason? It's simple, I don't have such huge social circle that I can possibly meet new people everyday. Of course, If you're to tell your uplines this matter you face everyday, they will then bring you to their meetings and once again motivate you with their local slogan - a phrase or sentence that conveys a key company value, for example, "Diamond! I want to be Diamond - which I find it ridiculous because somebody i saw they have been yelling this shoutout for ten years yet they still yell. Pardon me, I'm not ridiculing people who get into this line of work. Of course, there are still a lot people who are very successful in this line, like my friend who was entitled as DD which I think he has already achieved a very first step in this business. After analyzing and having close relationship with these people, I'd just figured out their downlines are all close friends, love ones or family members. I did have an attempt on preaching my friends and family about how this ideal plan can bring us wealthy but not everyone can share the same views with you. If you're MLM promoter and reading this now, controversies would definitely be raised, whether I'm properly educated from their system or did i follow properly my uplines' footsteps, at the end of the day no matter how powerful the system is, emphasis of the system is to tell you to "You have to meet new people everyday". Too bad lar, the first day I met the MLM promoter, they wanted sell me wishes but at the end i cannot afford to buy it.

THE ONE WHO LIKES TO DO NOTHING, NO WORRIES, MY PARENTS CAN FEED ME. Yup, basically you have the idea already, they are people who are so dependent on their parents. Having relaxing life, everyday high-tea with friends or sometimes sleep during working hours, life without worries, stress and obstacles. Do you think this kind of relaxing life can last in the long run? Yes, if your dad is bill gate. Anyway, true to say that without any parental financial support they are just a piece of trash who cannot make end meats. And do you think they are applicable to the cruel-real-working-world? I would say they themselves have already entitled themselves as a boss already in daily life.

THE ONE WHO DOESN'T WORTH TO MAKE FRIEND WITH. My life principle is simple, you treat me good, I treat you good. A lot of times you would probably meet somebody who with weird personal trait that you cannot get accustomed to. For example, they are people who always talk big and exaggerate things without necessary. However, I do understand some people actually come from painful past which reflex to their trait today. Regardless how malice their trait is, deep down if they have a very kind-hearted personality they are always welcome to be my friend. BUT, there are fewer who are exactly as malice as you can see so i would draw a line when it comes to ending friendship.

THE ONE WHO DOESN'T WANT TO SETTLE DOWN HER LIFE. To clarify that I don't mean everyone has to settle down their life lar but I think after you have reached certain stage of your life you probably would think to settle down right.. This is the dilemma. My friend invited me to karaoke mixing with another entire new circle so from there I got to know a lot of people and attractive chicks of course would never fail to catch my attention, I was kinda wanted to approach her but then I just figured out she was 35(She looks like 28 to me) and had a boyfriend who was somebody's husband. I as a outsider I have no right to judge she is a whore or not, but if i'm to put myself into her shoes I would rather look for a stable lover to date with than a waster, seriously isn't life is beautiful when you can spend all your time with them, everyday, every minute, every second? zzz.. Here's another dilemma goes.. I got to know a girl for quite a some time, she likes to have sex(that's the fact) and have multiple boyfriends at the same time, she was pregnant spread by rumor, if this is true I think she had just gone through abortion cause I'd just met her lately. I was kinda happy that I received her text in the midnight "I **** you so much", to be honest I was kinda developing a little true feeling towards her but then when i found out that she had a boyfriend(just don't wanna get involved with so many troubles, you know the whole elementary drama), I lost my courage to respond her. Well, I think I've been thinking too much lar, who knows she just accidentally sent to wrong person.. We lost in touch right after I didn't reply her text. Hope she is doing fine now. Wishing her all the best in the search of Mr.right.

PS: gosh, a post that packed with words basically you will scroll down and tldr.

2011-05-18T13:41:00.001+08:00

Two lives joined together..
Two hearts that beat as one..

As you begin your life together..
may all your days be filled with love and may all your dreams come true..

regards,
George.

2011-05-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

What's the first thing that would come to your mind when you see this?

Kopi O peng loh, obviously.

2011-05-11T11:56:00.001+08:00

Beautiful tree.. a lovely couple..

Not me, the one who sat at the next table.

2011-05-10T16:56:00.002+08:00

I know writing this is kind of overdue but these are words that kept in my heart for a long time. Happy Mother's Day, mum! I know i neglected this important day because i was working in PC fair and not able to spare my time celebrating with you. Mum, I cherish every moment i spent with you although somehow you seemed to be so tired with the house chores but deep down I appreciated the contribution you made. Mum, I'm not a good student who can actually study very well and score straight As like others did, also not as popular as your so called "famous relative's sons/daughters" either, I'm just an ordinary son. But mum, one thing is for sure, I would love you forever from my bottom of my heart and be really proud to be your son! Somedays, i will make you proud and prove that I'm not just ordinary but extraordinary. I remembered down in the past you ever told me "George, why don't you get a girlfriend, you seemed kind of lonely sometimes", my tears suddenly started to moisturize my eyes and I was like having an impulse of crying, the mixture of feelings was unexplainable. Well mum, just put aside all the girlfriend things first, what's in my first priority list is money. Money defines everything. Cut off the crap. Mum, Happy Mother's Day!

Moving on, I think it doesn't worth working for pc fair under pc image anymore, seriously just imagine you have to stand 33 hours for 3 days and at the end of the day you still have to do the stock transfer which you have to labor until midnight. To clarify, yes everyone in pc fair did the same but hey, how long it takes to finish packing your booth? 1 hours? From what i know pc image has reserved almost 30+ booths in pc fair, which means they have occupied 60% space in the fair that is totally insane. sad thing to say that we the workers are the last who stay in the fair to do the packing all night long. Seriously lar, why dun i go to work as maxis promoter, stand the whole day long, RM80 per day, and some more i don't need to stay until midnight!

Anyway, the objective of working in pc fair is to cause procrastination to my coursework. On Tuesday(today) would be Networking Lab Test III, Wednesday project team showcase, Thursday assignment III presentation, Friday programming lab test III. Congratulation George! You have started 10% out of 100% now for tomorrow presentation.

2011-05-08T01:48:00.002+08:00

Happy or sad, happy still sad, sad still not happy again. would stare into the space for few second, and suddenly come back to life, avoid watching emotional series, watch entertainment show only to keep me laughing. cherish every bit of my life. will look for a secluded place to tear. will karaoke until voice turn horse. will remember to create beautiful images for the future. i walk on this tough pathway. will remember my goal. I wan to say sorry. It's too late.

2011-05-04T21:39:00.003+08:00

YES! I had finally complete the longest assignment of the semester so now have some times to spend on my blog! I've been swamped by the tremendous amount of coursework lately that I don't even have time for social networking. I wonder studying in swinburne is the right choice or not, when one assignment ends then another is coming up, wtf, everyday is like same routine..same pattern. Lucky life isn't that sucks lah, at least sometimes will go happy hour in KTV or chill out with friends.

Here are some tasty food pictures which i had it in BDC area, this seafood restaurant is strongly recommended which is the best among others.

Hey, notice that on top of Venue there were kids in the gallery, to prove that this is not a closer encounter with ghost i actually went back to the place to double check. Phew~ Those kids disappeared! ..

Been so emotional lately and don't know what to blog, wrote a lot of posts but ended up not completing them, i think i sitll has to finish writing them zzzzz ..Pc fair is coming soon, another time to suffer from this have-to-stand-for-12hours-everyday-for-3days.

Jolin, here i come!

2011-04-26T08:51:00.000+08:00

I'd missed Jay's concert in May.

Now this shall be replaced.

Kuching Grand Finale

2011-04-16T01:20:00.001+08:00

People in Damai Flip Flop mood but me in politic mood, sounds uncleness. Whatever lar ..

ISO setting failure.

Frighten by the number of people? (Approximately 40k)

SOURCE

Of course you don't, but somebody does, probably already jizzed on his pant tonight.

DAP for the win

2011-04-15T13:34:00.002+08:00

The reason why I have the enthusiasm towards politics it's because during the toughest and helplessness time, DAP is the one who lends me their hand allowing me in settling things down without a single cent. From the day onwards i'm even more serious on politic stuffs and have been to DAP's talks lately for continuously 3 days by just standing there for 4 hours, despite the fatigued of long standing whole night long, the talk was absolutely worth it cause you understand the corrupt ways of Barisan National, how these ruling politician seized resident lands without valid permission., how their wrongdoings are revealed. The entire Sarawak nature resources have been monopolized by the politician but not Sarawakian who should equitably be shared. Who suffers? who is the victim? WE ARE THE VICTIM but just exclude those who have connection with the top BN leader in the state. In order to end this vicious cycle we need a clean governance regardless Malay or Chinese, as long as they could bring us a better future. But by far DAP is leading, question may be raised, how certain can DAP be our leader? Well, let's just take Penang And Selangor for the examples, enough said.

Support DAP for the change!!!!

wtf-ed

2011-04-09T18:07:00.002+08:00

Upon updating my new header for my blog I found this image in my imageshack folder. Although it's kinda overdue but it never fail to ease my emotion, whenever i click on it I would always laugh my ass off!!!!!!!

Pardon me for being so malicious expressing their facial expressions into words. These faces rock.

The Condom Challenge

2011-04-03T18:53:00.001+08:00

Seriously this video really make my day. Numbnuts rocks!

PS: WTF is there really a shop that sells XXXL condom?

2011-04-01T18:36:00.002+08:00

It's been really hectic than I thought, by the time i wake up, brush my teeth, go to school, go back home, do coursework..etc, oh it's 12am already.. then go back to sleep. This same routine is making me tired and started to lose my personal values where i used to do my favorite things during the past-time. Suppose I should be upsetting from some other unworthy things but i kept telling myself "Please check your priority list (i.e. assignment, lab test, assignment, group meeting)" all the time that i do not have times for these shit yet. I think something wrong with me these days. I watch the latest episode of kangxi, Hen Ren and Fan Fan are getting married, and all of the sudden my tears start to moisturize my eyes. I got teary when my friend confessed his love to the girl, and finally he made it (kinda heartfelt or maybe being overly happy). Along the night driving back home, turn on the radio, it's all about song that is falling in love and song that is falling out of love. It has been a whirlwind of emotions all of this time, I'm not sad and i'm not happy either, kind of like in some certain days of emptiness is killing me, i can't tell what's going on but the truth is my heart is becoming more vulnerable. Oh well, I still has to move on with those shitload of works from my college.

So today is April fool, nothing special. I guess I'm more special because my life is fooler.

P.S: been addicted to this song all these while, a song that is so close to me.

Will you say FUCK when your line lagged while playing game?

2011-03-28T20:05:00.002+08:00

Part 1

Part 2

PS: spelling mistake (punciation) = punctuation.

Overnighting in the shopping mall

2011-03-25T20:12:00.001+08:00

Well, I think it's not a good idea to sleep in the public.. Why? Because everyone will stare at you, i mean when you are snoring, definitely it draws a lot of attentions right?

Oh anyway, the promoter did not stop me from taking the picture.

Foods that you should never miss in Kuching [Part 1]

2011-03-22T18:46:00.001+08:00

AFTER THREE.

The taste of this dish is similar with Ipoh town BBQ mee. It's so tasty!

Jalan Song 阿鱼哥

7 Mile (dunno what stall).

4 Mile, one of the famous kolo mee..

but hey, why although they have angry faces while serving their customer but still hor everyone likes their kolo mee so much? Their faces for me are like I owed them RM1000000 and they wan to kill me.

My Lasik Surgery @ Optimax Kuching

2011-03-17T10:45:00.001+08:00

Having a perfect vision without glass on is seemed to be a miracle for those who are suffered from myopia. In those bygone days i used to do a lot of researches on the internet whether myopia was curable or not. The first thing i encountered was a China device that provide eye massage which can gradually improve your eyesight, the device cost around RM1k+, so it made no sense for me to buy it because there was no scientific-proof in such approach. Moving on the next thing I found was an effective technique. What you're going to do is set a focus point(e.g the coin) and stress your eye to focus it..

and then quickly move your head backward and focus the coin again.

The objective of doing this is to train the strength of your eyes, the more exercises you do, the more better eyesight you will have. Well, It was a scam, for my case i actually went to do the exercise again and again, at the end i turned out exhausted and dizzy. If I continue to do this, I think my eyes will die first before it cures.

In fact, i did come across laser eye surgery many years ago, during that time i was a student so with the tremendous amount of the surgery was definitely not part of my budget, also, generally there are many misconceptions where people suffers from its complications and side effects. So after some times when i finished my high school and started to work, I did save up some money.

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Six months back, all of the sudden I came out an idea to figure out what lasik eyes surgery is all about, so I went to Optimax(which is introduced by my friends, also influenced by Kennysia) for inquiry, their opticians approached and explained to me the entire procedure and showed how this surgery is performed. I would conclude that this surgery has a very safe procedure yet painless.

Basically what the lasik surgeon gonna do is, he/she actually used the machine so called microkeratome to create a hinged corneal flap on the outer layer of the eye, when the cornea is surgically removed, an excimer laser is used to reshape your cornea. The procedure will probably take 10 - 15 minutes per eyes, after that the doctor will replace the flap back and then the healing begins. This in fact will not lead to any serious complications because the removal part is on the outer layer of the eyes, not inner layer, so it's very rare you get complications for the surgery. 1% out of 100%? Yes.

Actually I was just browsing Optimax with no intent to do anything, not due to financial constraint but with such tremendous amount of money I could have done a lot of things, e.g. traveling, instead. One month passed, at the mean time I'd also been asking for feedback from ex-lasik patient, doctor from General Hospital and Chinese doctor, lol. All the feedback were pretty much on the positive side, that was when i took the initiative to make the final decision.

So, I was scheduled about two weeks before the surgery commence, I was very calm until the day when i was about to walk into the operating room, I was so worried and nervous. This surgery is performed under local anesthesia, that means you have to open your eyes for the entire procedure, that also means you're going to feel something is cutting your eyes off painlessly. I kept on shivering, worrying this and that during the process. ~~OMFG my eyes!~~ This was normal, I just got too much unduly concerned. Approximately one hour plus the surgery was finally done for both eyes, I felt painless except having very blurry vision. I found my eyes extremely discomfort like my eyes were running out of tears. The next day i woke up, my eyes recovered except slight dry eye where i had to apply teardrops.

I had always have to put on eye shields before bed for first week.

zzzzzzzzzzzzz

The next day i woke up, it was a completely new different world for me, everything i saw was sharp and clear, I couldn't help describing how excited/happy I was but kept on telling my friends "Hey, i just installed two DSLR cameras on both of my eyes". A week later, my eyes seemed to be very tired, my vision got blurred especially under dim light, double vision during midnight (maybe because of sleeping late), glare vision when i drive in night and this continued for two months.

Normal

Glare Vision

Normal

Glare Vision

Normal

Blurry vision

I was very worried and went back to the clinic for check-up, what i got from their optometrist was "Be patient", fine then since I'd also checked on the internet most after-lasik-patient they had similar experiences. This irritation had been barricading me from looking for job and also driving at night, how disturbing.

Hairstyling for 13mins. Must camwhore a while.

After undergoing these short term side effects for about two months, now my eyes are regained back to its full vision. Glare, double and blurry visions are cleared after two months except slight dry eye, it's not a big deal after all. Many imperfections are slowly reducing as the time goes by. Anyway, I'm very happy with my brand news eyes now as they are no longer like before, where i have to put on glass to do my own things.

Now I can enjoy jogging with clear greenery.

Now I can enjoy swimming & clear underwater world ~~looking at bikini~~.

Now I can club and squeeze into the crowd.

Well, I think it is important to have good eye contact because it can stimulates strong feelings of affection, at the same time also makes a good conversation flows smoothly where your conversational partner may think that you are confident or interested in the conversation. When it comes to your love ones, looking into her/him eyes you can actually see little color changes that make up their eyes, reflection in their eyes, design of their eyes.. how lovely/romantic. If I'm with glass on, definitely my love ones will not give a damn.

This beautiful chick doesn't look at me, never mind, i know iphone pwned my eyes nowadays.

In totality, I had just made one of the best decision ever in my entire life. I'm very great that I'm now totally freed from the dependency of glass, same thing goes to when you are freed from sanitary napkin. Perfect vision is essential because we are happy when we see beautiful things. Isn't it wonderful to have a DSLR camera to take picture?

Disclaimer: The above contents are my own experience, not all individual experience is the same.

2011-03-15T18:29:00.000+08:00

We met once in the orientation group, 8 months ago. I saw her yesterday, she was busy with her phone. I wanted to talk to her but i lost my courage. Then I left.

May god bless Japan

2011-03-12T12:05:00.000+08:00

I was doing my assignment and it almost blow my head off, I was very stressed. When i came across this breaking news yesterday. I find myself at the end of the day nothing matters than those who run for their life in the horrible disaster.

PS: Syndrome of 2012.

Jay Chou Concert @ Stadium Putra, kuala Lumpur

2011-03-08T19:03:00.002+08:00

Has everyone been to Jay Chow concert last Friday and Saturday? I've been craving to see Jay but at the end i did not make it, FML. I like Jay for many years, not because everyone likes Jay, it's because Jay's music has been revolutionary, nobody can substitute his style, and nobody can sing like the way he sings and most importantly his music never fail to soothe my emotions . Few months back, i was fully got my ass ready to participate Jay's concert, i checked all the air and concert tickets, despite everything was confirmed, the only thing that barricaded me from going to his concert was "I WILL BE GOING ALONE", FML again. Fine, since eating alone has been extremely reluctant to me, same thing goes to traveling alone.

Give KaoFung credits who did a great job! He went to Jay concert! Here are some photos and videos taken during the concert.

Stadium Putra

Everyone must have screamed until their voice turned horse.

Facebook App - Breakup Notifier

2011-03-06T18:43:00.000+08:00

Facebook has become the biggest part of everyone's life, you check in with foursquare to show off the location you visited, you uploads the valentine photos to show off how wonderful night you have ever spent, you type negative or emotional statements on your wall, you camwhore until your camwhoring photos flooded on others' wall, but one thing that you never realize is, the biggest part of your life has also been scrutinized by others . Today, somebody comes out with a stalking app, Breakup Notifier. Whoever that changes their relationship status, this app will then notify you, damn this is so efficient.

Source : CNN

App : Breakup Notifier

PS: I'm searching for another app, Single Promoter.

2011-02-26T09:49:00.000+08:00

后视镜里的世界

PS:

2011-02-23T20:13:00.002+08:00

snapped this photo 1 year ago..

This photo is so memorable to me, not because of the fantabulous taste nor reasonable price, but it's the first time i have my lunch alone. To be real honest that i have never been alone having my lunch just because i'm afraid of being lonely. This is also my first job, have no friends and at the end i gotta lunch alone. The feeling of loneliness is sick, just like when you are looking at those people in group and couple chill together having their meal and they are like so accompanied while looking back at myself i turned out to be so pity. I would say my friendship circle has started minimizing as the time pass by, some of them have their own way to go, some of them have already achieved their merry way(which i'm so proud of), some of them got married, some of them working/studying abroad, and not to mention those who are coupled, the blogs i used to read now is no longer updating, the msn friends who i used to chat with now become inactive.. Out of nowhere everyone is separating..

This is the place i spend almost everyday - jogging. It's also a place that i relieved the pains, anxieties and distress. I remembered last time i came across this phrase; "I want to walk in the rain because nobody knows I'm crying", it was pretty much reflected into my real life. In fact that whenever i cannot help pouring all the frustrations and sadness but going such place can actually free me from all the depressions, I would run as fast as i can, to stress my body as exhausted as i can to fool myself from knowing the truth that I am sad and nobody would know you are crying or not in this dark scene. Sometimes i just wish someone would be there to lift me up, someone that cares, someone that understands me a lot..

Today's lesson: How to please/cheat a girl.

2011-02-16T12:56:00.000+08:00

Guys should learn how to please their girlfriend when this shit happened..

Girl: WHY YOU NEBBER LISTEN TO MI.

Happy Valentine's Day?

2011-02-13T15:13:00.001+08:00

I believe everyone has a love story. Love story makes us who we are, no one has the same experience and perspective in life and that's why it is so special. Before you have not ever gone through any love story, you used to celebrate one important day - Birthday, after you have your loved one attached there you celebrate three important days in life i.e. Birthday, Anniversary, and Valentine's Day. Every of these important days indicated beautiful and permanent memories of both of you. Celebrating Valentine's Day is such a wonderful day ever, the romantic gift you received from your love ones would always be a permanent memorial made in memory of you and your boyfriend/girlfriend. How great it is to be in a relationship..

However, Valentine's Day is seemed to be an awesome day for couple but not for all. Those who have just encountered painful relationship breakup and having deep depression for a period of time, such occasion will always remind you of him/her. At the end of the day you rather cooped yourself in the room than going out to see everyone coupled walking along the street. Staying at home and doing nothing do not make you happy too, when you logged onto facebook and see everyone is falling in love, it turned out to be the same as you get jealous, questioning yourself what on earth I'm always the only person who feel sad of. Time may heal all the wounds but there will always be scars.

Not everyone is emotional when it comes to Valentine's Day. Those who are single are definitely find it monotonous when such special occasion approaches. You have totally no idea how wonderful and fantastic couple celebrating Valentine's day; buying flowers, having candle dinner, exchange romantic gifts and so on. Shit, I think I'm portraying myself in this situation. Single will forever stay lonely, sometimes you get even lonelier when you happened you see people around you are in love.

The entire Kuching was in Valentine mood two days earlier because i saw people started selling flowers and Valentine gifts on roadside, that was fast. I think most people won't intend to buy the flowers because the price is way too much overpriced.

Anyway, those who are going to celebrate Valentine's Day i wish you can cherish every moment you spend together with him/her. Those who are being emotional should learn to get over it, i know it's ain't easy but perhaps time can tell. Those who are single i think it's still not bad because you can flirt around. Eh, as for me..I think I will lock the door.. turn off the light.. wait until the day is over!

Best wishes.

PS: Can't believe i found this. A Valentine gift for my childhood lover!

-_-

The Six White gathering 2011

2011-02-08T13:13:00.004+08:00

Two months back, a bunch of us has actually come out an idea to hold a class gathering. What makes the gathering exciting is a lot of us has totally lost in touch and such event could bring us altogether. Initially we did not expect so many people were keen to join us, we thought to organize this event if there were about 10 to 15, but it were more than expected. Increment improved as the time passed by, we had had the initiative to make this happening just because of the increasing number of people, how great it was when everyone supported us! I'd just met a lot of my long lost friend on the gathering, it turned out to be nostalgic because every new fresh unfamiliar face would take me some times to recall who is him/her, just to imagine 13 years back the person was like in minimized version but now it's like maximized version LOL. One thing was that I'd met my childhood love, how bittersweet when reminiscing back all those bygone days. ~~Too bad flirting in such event is not so appropriate.~~ Honestly to say that I had really spent one of the most memorable and meaningful new year ever throughout all these years. Also special thanks to those who attended the gathering and your attendance is very much appreciated!

My face got blurred. Nicely done.

~~BTW they are not couple, what's with the perverted hand?~~

Nothing can keep precious memory but photo.

PS: Thanks a million to our organizers: Kai Hao who creates the facebook group, Wen Ching who collects the money and Me who do the survey and ballroom reservation. :]

Xing nian kuai le!

2011-02-03T11:55:00.000+08:00

Snapped this photo when i noticed the angle was kinda beautiful.

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone. Thanks to those who sms me with regards especially anonymous.

Have a blast on the CNY!

Meeting a net friend

2011-01-30T23:28:00.000+08:00

I got to know her from facebook a month back, was when she came into my profile and dropped me a greeting with all sort of emotions "<3 , :) , =)", with this she seemed to be friendly to chat with. After that, we went on chatting about one month but the thing was, i couldn't find any common between us so the conversation was like so crap yet random stuff. There was one time in the midnight around 2am, i bumped into her in facebook cause not much people online during that time, we decided to meet each other by going for a movie. Time and date were set but at the end she canceled our date in last minute. So I'd lost my initiative to date her out again because she seemed to be really shy whenever we talked about where to go; she ignores going Karaoke, Movie, even cafe. -_-, hello where else can we go? One day later, she sms-ed me asking me to go for a movie and i agreed. We supposed to have our lunch together before the movie commence but when i met her at Spring she told me she just had her meal already. The atmosphere isn't that pleasant at all after she got tongue-tied so i quickly said; "OK i will have my lunch first later then i'll get back to you". After that, we didn't meet again. There are two possibilities: 1. She is not sociable enough to meet new people - poor self-presentation (distinguished this from her personality) . 2. Normally like a net friend would run away in the half way is because either I'm not her cup of tea or i look very horrible to her, Walau, can this be possible? If to rate me from 1 to 5, generally i also get rated in 3 right.. lol -_-.

2011-01-27T00:58:00.002+08:00

Do you ever feel so lonely even though you're surrounded by people.. feel so discontented whatever things happen in life because at the end of the day, you are alone going through all these.. And somehow It's hard to mend a broken heart, it's like you just completed the one-thousand-picture-puzzle and suddenly it all falls apart, and then takes a long time to put all the pieces together. Some people may refuse to see the complete picture again because it is not as beautiful as it used to be, some may attempt to see the full picture because they want to forget the past and start over fresh new life, it ain't easy but perhaps time can tell. Sometimes when you've been dwelt into the discontented world and wanted to get rid of it you just have to keep yourself as busy as you can cause that's the only way to distract you from being upset all the time. But still you are not OK, after those hectic hours end you still have to spend some times to grieve during the whole lonely night. You couldn't help pouring the sadness but going to a secluded place and cuddle on the floor and cry. Nobody, no one else care.

You won't see the picture anymore cause you can't solve it without her.

:|

2011-01-16T19:21:00.001+08:00

Here comes another boring weekends accompanied by beer.

Boom Boom Shake Shake..

Beer loves us, it wants us to be happy.

Random thought of the day

2011-01-13T19:27:00.001+08:00

I used to envy multi-talented persons as they can gain recognition and possess very good public relationship. People like them have a very expandable social circle and most importantly they can definitely get the girl they like as well. Everyone chills with them while others who are lackluster would in fact left behind from the pandemonium - I'm one of them. I hate myself because I'm ugly, disable in studies, not capable to chase girl yet getting rejections and hated from girls have slowly become my full-time job. And starts to realize that life has nothing to be happy of. I live life without anticipation from the day onwards, and what has made my day is getting addicted into gaming as it has actually get my self-esteem back regardless how sad or happy i am, playing games can always keep my mind stay eased. Instead of thinking much about my future far ahead, i spend most of my time in gaming throughout my entire childhood. Because of this, I do not get very good results in my high school final exams, I start to hate myself and I start to lose my confident of self-presentation in everyday life.

However, living in the comfort zone would never last forever. After an awful accident occurred, there was a period of depressions in my life that took me years to grieve.All these times I've been singing a lot as it set me free from all sort of depressions, fooling myself from knowing the truth that I'm not happy. I believe that everyone lives for a reason. I don't know the reason but perhaps it can be very simple - Happy. I ask myself when was my last happy moment and i turned out to be wondering how and when. Sometimes spending my times on facebook in the whole long lonely night, by just clicking Top News and Most Recent, it's always the same, everyone has their love ones, has their happy moments. As time pass by, I'm turning 24 soon and still constantly searching for the reason.

Have you ever had happy memory that you feel so comfort and a moment frozen in time?

Picture of the day.

2011-01-06T16:52:00.001+08:00

Beautiful dawn always make me felt refreshing.

When you see beautiful things, all of the sudden life becomes beautiful.

4 years of endurance has finally come to an end.

2010-12-27T23:42:00.004+08:00

What makes a person has the initiative to steal a thing even though he knows it is an illegal act? Are they not capable of looking for proper job, or not even waitress? From my understanding, because people cannot find a solution to overcome their financial difficulties, so under the pressure they choose to be a thief. This is embarrassing if you get caught, because even a 4-years-old kid would tell you it is a wrongdoing. Moreover, a scammer is like a professional-thief who tricks a person into doing something, making the person think they are getting something in return. Eventually the person gets nothing. Regardless how much you earn from all these illegal money, at the end of the day you will still be jailed, you will still definitely disgrace your family, because you're not gonna tell your son: "Dad is working as a scammer, we cheat money from many people".

One month back.

I went to see my lawyer to seek for inquiries. What i wanted to know was the progress of the court case, whether or not he was still capable to defend from the accusation. He requested me to signify a consent form which was based on BAHASA MALAYSIA language, i did not exactly understand the content, so i refused to sign. I asked him to explain what's with the consent form but he said: "Just sign it then we will proceed further steps". Heck, am i dumb? Eventually, we argued, he said i did not believe in him while i claimed that i as a client had the right to understand every single document i sign. The last thing said by him: "Simply RM200 for the fee does not satisfy me from fucking china prostitute".

Few days later.

(This was my first hearing in Kuching Court House.)

I was kind of nervous because without the lawyer's lead I was confused what to do and speak in the court. My mum told me not to appeal the case anymore as she had been fatiguing when it comes to this kind of situation, she hoped to settle it down as soon as possible. So at the end i decided to be charged and pay the compound - approximately MYR 5k to10k. Due to the absence of the plaintif, the court case was extended.

For the time being we had a long break before the hearing commence. My mind suddenly popped out an idea, was to obtain legal advice from the People's Justice Party(i.e. political party). We headed over to their office as it was close in the vicinity. I met a lawyer, SEE CHEE HOW, we were seated and explained how our case was going on. He concluded that i should admit guilt in the court because there was no point for me to prolong the case or hire another lawyer to present a defense again which would probably cost more than expected. And he would be there to plea guilty for me towards the judges. This was the first time i met him and had been so helpful to me and gave me his name card for staying in touch - all legal services are free of charge.

At the end of the day, everything went smoothly, but i have been sentenced in general season under the Youthful Offender because the road accident occurred when i was 19. With this kind of sentencing i can avoid driving license endorsements and less summon charges. However, i got surety bond from the court, that meant i had to be in good bond behavior within these 2 years, if i fail to comply the rule, i would be convicted.

So in totality, if my previous lawyer has put some efforts to fight over the case i wouldn't have been to this kinda stage, where i have to admit guilt yet summoned by the court. Everytime i meet him, i have to settle all the hidden fees. Anyway, cheating and scamming money are absolutely not reflecting very well on his upbringing. He needs to be instilled being an upright person in the society. Somedays i want him to repay what he had just done to me, especially when I've the upper hand in the society I'll definitely teach him a lesson, i swear.

Anyway, there were a lot of weights on my shoulder over these past few years but now, it's over. I can finally fly like a bird.

Merry Christmas

2010-12-24T20:05:00.004+08:00

Merry Christmas! To those who changed from "In a relationship" to "Single", congratulation! Because you may enjoy the freedom and begin with another new chapter of life. To those who changed from "Single" to "In a relationship", congratulation! Because you're not going to celebrate it alone. To those who stay SINGLE all the way, congratulation! Here comes another Lonely Christmas.

Best wishes.

Video of the day.

2010-12-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

After following clicknetwork episodes for quite some times, this is the first time i click onto BUDGET BARBIE's video. All of a sudden I realize that having proper boob(i.e. big or not so big but at least got shape lah) means a lot to a girl. Seriously, after watching this video i deeply felt happy to QuiQui. She is a brave girl especially she's in the limelight, still she is brave enough to reveal her boob job procedure. I salute her! After all, being happy is the priority of life. There is no doubt that surgery today has always prove a miracle from an imperfect person to a perfect person. 1 week more, then I'm gonna do my surgery too lol. (not boob job of course)

For those who are keen to have a boob job, this may be informative.

Video's content may contain inappropriate for some users. Viewer discretion is advised.

PS: I stumbled and loled a second in the ending part : "is not gonna to let anyone else see my boobs, is to let my boobs see the world".

Die for nothing?

2010-12-10T17:34:00.006+08:00

I have an impulse of blogging this breaking news.

Now the entire internet is totally a buzz of this guy who committed suicide due to relationship issue. Before his death at 12am, he actually makes a countdown for his suicide on facebook , and also states that he is taking this for serious, not just for prank. By the way, what's with making all these statements on his wall? To draw attentions to his friends and tell them how brave he is to sacrifice his live to love? Or killing himself can actually show how much he loves her? Dude, have you ever figured out that we don't usually watch movie for a second time, not because we get bored about its storyline but there are still a lot of upcoming movies which is more exciting and interesting. Hardly, we do not talk about the movie we watched last week, we'll forget about it after some times. Samething goes to this scene, one or two years later, nobody would bother to reminisce what you have done now, and nobody would pity you because you are self-fish, you make your parents suffer. At the end of the day, what do you get? Big bold headline on the newspaper front cover? or to show your parents it's your pride to die before them? Or probabbly u can get her back (if yes, it's too late tho). Seriously, i think at least you should die for something, not just for nothing. Imagine now his ex-girlfriend still move on her life, and get as many boyfriends as she could. You know, when somebody can get you falling in love, you will easily forget undesirable things in life.

Alviss Kong and Binluii

Anyway, after all his ex-girlfriend is famous now. If she's an attention whore, there she gains her hits. I guess such a pretty girl sure get a row of guys queuing up to date her. I guess I'm one of them.

Sorry, this user already has too many ~~boy~~friend requests.

Edit: Facebook profile has been deleted. Here's their fanclub.
Link: 1. 2. 3. 4.

Number zero

2010-11-28T00:19:00.002+08:00

I'd a whirlwind of emotions over these past few weeks.Every morning i wake up, i have to think of how to settle all those undone things. No matter how crowed the place is, how happy everyone is, deep inside my heart I've found myself lackluster; it's like losing a big part of my life. Being happy, being upset, being upset again. And I have a lot of thoughts to express over my blog but my fingers perplexed on the keyboard, typing and deleting, typing and deleting continuously.

Having a walk with someone on the park.

Come to realize that life is no more easier than before.

Tips : How to approach a girl

2010-11-21T21:55:00.002+08:00

I've been reading a lot of articles lately, regarding how can boys chase girls with effective and efficient ways, and also watching TV show talking about how do boys approach girls. Well, I'm not gonna say my tips are going to work out for everyone but i simply find it useful. All these tips are based on my own experience and most of them are acquired from TV shows. What? TV shows? Are you serious? Yes dude, please don't underestimate me because with all these tips I've always make good impressions on girls (not blowing my horns).

Most of us walking down to the street, going to shopping mall or places like night clubs, we usually feast our eyes on hot chicks, saying to ourselves "Yeah, this chick is hot, i need to get her", but when it comes to reality, things ain't that easy anymore. But do you actually think girls do the same? Like how they admire guys, saying to themselves "Oh here comes my Mr.right!". Thinking back perhaps you have lost a lot of opportunities in the past. Once you meet your special someone, just go after her because you will never know when will the opportunity come again.

Indeed, i think it is very important to have strong self-esteem as it will make your actions and conversations flow well, and eventually she might get interested on you in the first place. In addition if you have good interpersonal skills that will absolutely be added an advantage because you can initiate a conversation with her and she understands what you are all about. And not to forgot to be humorous all the time, you'll have the higher chance of getting her when you can get her laughing and having a good time and there is no way she would not fancy your company. Do not ever give excuses to yourself to give up - not handsome/smart/slim/ enough. Girls themselves are not perfect too, especially those with small boobies? So don't underestimate yourself, just take out your courage and engage into her conversation and make your opening.

When both of you get to know each other and you wanted to call her out for a date, you need to do some homework before meeting her in person.

1.Study her astrology sign because it actually explains about her personality traits. (Some may find this superstitious, but it has been a popular belief when it comes to love compatibility. Perhaps you can try to read your own astrology sign and see whether it helps or not) After studying her horoscope, basically you'll have a better understanding of her character. The reason is you'd have the ideas on how to interact and communicate with her. For example, Aries women like romantic, so pick a romantic venue and do some sweet talks. Aries is talkative, so do talk more. Aries is dependent, so be a gentlemen to help her whenever she needs your help.

2.Be yourself. I mean don't do something that you're not good at. If you're not a sweet-talker, so don't sweet talk, you can talk a lot more e.g. your favorite TV shows. Anyway, i think it is not necessary to prepare words you want to say, just treat her as your friend, like how you usually communicate with them. You should always remind yourself that you're not facing death situation or going up the stage to perform. It's just a date that you should feel happy with. At the end of the day, no matter how cute or pretty she is, she is still a girl.

3. Make interesting conversation. I believe many of us when meeting someone that is not so familiar, we'll always be running out of words to say, and ended up tongue-tied. Hence, it is a challenge for you to keep the atmosphere pleasant from start to finish. Here, let me give you some ideas what to talk about:

Occupation: e.g. she works as software engineer. You can ask whether she is happy with her career or not, and why she gets into this line of work.
Where does she usually hang out with friends: This is the best way you'll get to know her better because the places she usually hang out show her interest e.g. nightclubs, KTV ..etc. If both of you have a lot in commons, it's pretty sure you will talk with her non-stop the whole night long.
Relationship Status: This is the core of impression. Basically you can ask her her past relationships, and what are the reasons behind those breakups. And ask her what does she expect her new boyfriend going to be like. And don't forget to ask her whether she has admirers or not. If she is willing to spill the beans telling you that she is not interested with them, then she MIGHT put you in her priority list. If she tells you she doesn't have admirers, then she lies. LOL.

4.After spending a wonderful night with her, make sure you have checked her timetable. You have to know which timeslot is available for you to date her out next time.

That's all for the tips. Not all these tips are based on my own experience but acquired it from friends and social media lol. The following days are still count on your efforts to win her heart. Again to emphasize this post is not about "How to get a girl" or "How to get a girl like you", it is "How to approach a girl and make your first impression".

Simply a long post. Don't get tldr-ed. :)

SUPP Open DotA Championship 2010

2010-11-14T23:55:00.004+08:00

Few weeks ago, my friend approached me, asking me to form a DotA team to take part of the tournament - SUPP Open DotA Championship 2010. Before recruiting players, my request has been granted, to utilize every single player's role such as semi-carry, full-carry, supporter and ganker, so eventually i'd agreed to form the team. What has enticed me to participant the tournament is if i advanced to the second round then I will be entitled RM30 as a reward, and each round is stack.

A brief info for the tournament.

Prizes:

Champion - RM 1,200 / Trophy / Gold Medal

1st Runner up - RM 600 / Trophy / Silver Medal

2nd Runner up - RM 300 / Trophy / Bronze Medal

3rd Runner up - RM 150

Lucky Draw Event on the 2nd day before prize giving ceremony.
Prizes include:

1 Razer Mouse DeathAdder
1 Razer Mouse CopperHead
1 Razer Mouse Abyssus
10 Logitech MX-518 Mouse

Tournament Bracket.

For more details, check thestar online news.

I think what makes a team outstanding is all come down to see how well every player plays. Sorry to say that some people are not potentially pro in this field because I've happened to see people who play DotA for many years but did not improve at all. I guess this is what makes a difference between a-smart-player and a-everyday-play-dota-player. I mean no matter how many times you play, end the end of the day you do not figure out the mistake you make, you will never improve. Such player involves in the team will be a burden - inexperienced player. I'm not taking credit to myself stating that I'm the master mind in the team but at least for a proper team should consist of three things; good players, teamwork and team spirit. If i do not lead the team, then who will? In day 2, my friend told me he would draft the game for me cause he just figured out the opponent's weak point, so the drafting and ingame arrangement part would all count on him. Well, i think he is just trying to be more outstanding in the team so i'll just let him. At last, we lost in the 2nd game. It was just not too bad, roughly our score: 10 kills/ 40 deaths. WE GOT PAWNED HARD. The opponents are extremely outplayed so much better than expected. I guess i should not flame on my friend, a-everyday-play-dota player. Oh well, nothing much i can say. I would conclude the entire experience, playing with not so potential players are totally a waste of my time. :)

Day 2, Final. ggm|x vs LCK

Congratulate to ggm|x who has crowned the champion. Seriously is there any team in Sarawak can beat them? I ever heard there are few but from what i know they have won every single tournament in Kuching. In this final game, it was totally a rape game, LCK has no match with ggm|x. They even come out Divine Rapier to show them humiliation. Honestly, this is Sarawak's standard. If they're going compete in KL that would be another entirely different story.

Anyway, it's not too bad since we lost in the very early stage because we're still certified by SUPP(politic group).

After all, i can possess this certificate during the job interview, i guess it will be added an advantage.

REPLAY PACK IS UP.

Movie Marathon

2010-11-05T13:40:00.001+08:00

Digi has come out an interesting event - the Movie Marathon. It is beneficial for those who want to have free meal and watch free movie non-stop for the whole day long. The thing is, there is no entry fee which entices me to give a try. Although i lose it, i still get to watch free movies and free meals right? It's win-win situation. But I just figure out a loophole in this competition, who knows if you sleep in the cinema? If they are to monitor you in the cinema, then maybe you can put on sunglasses instead.

I did not know Kuching people are so kiasu.

I got there just 15 minutes earlier, and the queue was already too long. So i decided to give up since they only provide 100 slots for participants. Do you think it is easy to win the game? I guess not, there are still a lot of hardcore people outside there who are craving for the attractive prizes and ready to die for the free movies. At the end of the day, judges decision is final. I believe you're not the only one who finish the entire marathon.

Saturday Night

2010-10-31T02:07:00.004+08:00

Happy Halloween!

Just finish partying. It's midnight now.

Listening to this song in the long lonely night.

~~And i felt a bit upset.~~

Thought of the day

2010-10-22T17:56:00.002+08:00

I am wondering how do you define success or how do you fulfill your desire? I guess different level of people struggle different level of things. Couples always quarrel about their relationship issue while others remain single always complain why nobody loves them. People who stay in the city always think the pace is moving too fast that they can't be adaptive while people in the remote area get sick of their dull life. People who become entrepreneur always complain that they are lifeless while others may think they are wasting their time working as an employee. Nobody is perfect, but there is someone that can be the nobody. There is one kind of person who does not need to struggle so hard in life - a friend of mine. He is classified as a 5 Cs person; Cash, Car, Credit card, Condominium. First of all, a brief introduction of him, he has a girlfriend like everyone's dream girl, he owns a racy car, got golden credit card, most importantly he got his own house and a stable career. At this point, what else he is going to struggle anymore? Yes, perhaps to extend his career? Person like him actually has less worries in life. Unlike me, i have tons of works to do to call myself a successful man. Things that i achieve are just what he has achieved years ago. I know it isn't right to put myself into his shoes but i just hate myself when come down to see my future. I'm the only son and i got no other options. I can only be success. BUT if i failed ...no, i cannot fail, that's for sure.

(°_o)

Lawyer may be a scam.

2010-10-16T11:04:00.001+08:00

Four years back, i met an road accident which involved death and injury The incident had extremely vulned my entire family; mentally and physical. Every one of us took one year to regain the strength to move on. It was the most dreadful moment i had ever been through for my entire life. Until today, i am still fighting for the court case. This is due to the fact that I'd met a fraudulent lawyer who claimed as a specialist in road accident. Upon these years every time when we attended a court case he only craved for consultation fee without making any progress. Every hearing was ridiculously postponed, the reasons were simple; either insufficient evidence, or witness did not present in the court (Do you see how good Malaysia public sector management is?). The lawyer told us that we should take photos on the spot where the accident occurred for dispute purposes. We followed the order. Until the next hearing(after few months later), we present and he again told us that, the court required three copies of those photos, so the hearing must be postponed again. Seriously. Hello! Excuse me! How the fuck i myself a client know how many copies you need and now you fucking wasted my time yet i need to pay for the fucking fee again? Most importantly, he absent 2 hearings without informing me. It was obvious already, he did not put my case in his priority list. So the case prolonged. he court was situated somewhere around Bau(rural area) which i have to travel over 20 miles in order to reach the destination. It was inconvenient and some more fatigable. However, the case is still in the progress. In spite of undergoing these hardships, I have only two options;

1. I'll meet the lawyer in person, whether or not he is going to win the case. If yes, the case shall proceed. If uncertain, and do not show me a fucking confident face. Fine.

2. I'm ready for the penalty.

Seriously, I dislike going through this kind of stuff intensely. But after this fucking scam i'd finally learned some lessons. Well, i think these tips may be helpful to people who come cross this issue in the first time.

Let's say you have met an road accident that involved death. And you are accused of careless driving, but you want to stick with your gun and appeal for penalty, you should do some careful considerations:

1. Although it is a frightening case, you have to force yourself to stay calm and look for an appropriate lawyer. What i mean is, i know sometimes with the help of relatives/friends, they could introduce lawyer to you, but you cannot guarantee that their expertise can help you in the case. So it is better you survey around in the town to search for lawyer who is particularly specialized in road accident. In addition, i think it is also appropriate to ask "Can i consult you without consultation fee", this will help you to save a lot of money.

2. Analyze the case and understand agreements. You have to understand how much fees you are going to pay and how much you could claim from the case. (I'd previously consulted other lawyers, they told me they won't charge me a single $ until they won the case, so at the end they will charge 20% on my overall claim from the insurance). In case, if your lawyer do not accept such condition, then you have to compare both fees and claims, whether or not is worth to hire a lawyer.

3. After you finished the hearing, remember always consult your lawyer how is the case going on. You have the right to understand the condition, otherwise you can look for other lawyer for alternative. (In my case, i can only hire new lawyer to takeover my case within 3 years, too bad the fucking fraudulent lawyer ruin my whole case)

So in totality, don't ever think lawyers, professors or doctors they are the upright persons in the society, they might use their knowledge to abuse the authority (IT HAPPENED TO ME). Don't think they are intelligent, they can dispute very well, same thing goes to if they tell me to develop a software, they will also look me up because programing required good math. Do lawyer good at math? Nope, they are only good at theory and academic and what more? I know lawyers in my town they are good at fucking prostitute.

Hi readers!

2010-10-09T01:24:00.000+08:00

Last time, when my social life was kind of hectic, i rarely think to blog because i knew that this blog was totally isolated. Often, i check my blog's traffic, it was like 1 or 2 hits per month. The only time when i get to blog was when i felt terribly depressed. As you know, if you don't have a loyal listener, you will always be sad in the darkness where nobody cares. The only cyberspace where i could pour my frustration is my blog.

In July, i went to check my nuffnang's traffic analysis, i gained some hits. It's simply unbelievable because i can't actually figure out what's the attraction on my blog.

Perhaps, I'd previously covered some gaming tournament events, so that when people who search for the event, the blog's entry can be found on google. Without thinking much, i realize this is just coincidence.

Fast forward to August ..

As usual, I would still monitor my traffic every week. But the daily hits have really freaked me out. Imagine i got thousand of hits every day, i would have pawned kennysia - the topest blogger in Malaysia. LOL. But then i think this entire traffic analysis could be a fraud, or probably nuffnang themselves might get their coding wrong on my page. So my friend suggested me to put a traffic counter on my blog. Guess what, these readers are real! :)

Finally, i guess Google statistic cannot be fake too.

Well, from the button of my heart, I'm very grateful to those who still bother to read my boring/full of grammatical errors/stupid/uninteresting/random blog. I used to blog in a quiet and empty space, now .. i guess .. not anymore. :D

Anyway, feel free to drop me comments if you have any point of view for any of my entry. Also do suggest me how am i going to improve my blogskin.

New blog skin! New home!

My last holiday

2010-10-04T18:11:00.000+08:00

If you ask me, how would i like to spend my vacation ..

This will definitely come to my mind.

But if you would ask me how usually i spend my vacation, this is what come to my mind - Damai beach. I hate this place because the water is dirty and the swimming pool is incredibly small, how do people manage to swim on it. It's just fucking pointless.

A friend of mine was back from Johor and requested me to bring his friends for a tour in Kuching. Instead of shopping, i cannot find any tourist attraction in Kuching. Eventually we decided to head over Culture Village; a place that depicts the heritage of racial groups in my town. However, it's still a boring place to hang out.

Lazy to blog. Just let the pictures speak.

Dumb.

Can this be the mini-temple that serves to protect a particular district in peace?

Atop view

Another mini-temple.

Not remarkable at all, how could it be a historical stone? lol

Translation: Rumah = House. Cina = Chinese

The end of the trip. ¯\(°_o)/¯

Buntal Seafood.

Had a wonderful seafood for my dinner,

As a reward for my tour guiding.

Sometimes, faking a smile will make you feel better.

2010-09-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

I've been reading a lot of emotional blog entries lately. I also happened to see people around me just ended their relationship. Reading Suet's emo post is one of the most heartfelt one. I did not expect they had came to an end as i've been reading her blog for years, they were like what we all called the "Perfect Couple". In the cruel world, a start always have an end. Well, if you're being in love and attempt to make it last- is "Work". It's not like the fairy tale ends ".. and they lived happily forever and ever .." If they did live happily forever and ever, that meant they really worked at it. Often, happy moments never last, but sad moments always come after happy moments. When you're being in love in the first time, you can't stop thinking of him/her every hour, every minute and every second, it's like having an addiction to something that is irresistible. In the night, you can't sleep because his/her images are repeatedly flashing over your mind. When the first time you decide to kiss him/her, you get really nervous. But if the kiss succeed, then you'd accomplished a little part of commitments, both of you. When the first time you hold his/her hand, you feel not going to be alone anymore. Despite not even a second is wasted, you cherish every moment with him/her. When you look into his/her eyes, you see the love light. At the end, the relationship has reached its lifespan; long relationship lost its feeling, and without realizing how it is important to you, so you let go it. This is where the sad moments take place. It will take you a lot of times to grieve. Until then you realize you have lost such a big part of yourself. This is human. It's an endless vicious cycle.

PS: just simply my outlook of relationship issue, i will still work very hard for my relationship :D

Convocation

2010-09-23T20:03:00.000+08:00

It's astounding when i come down to see my graduation in 2010, not because I've accomplished it but involved in education-line. I used to abandon my study in high school, all i gotta to do in the class was to sleep. Thus, I'd scored terribly bad in my SPM certificate ( was wanted to display it on my blog, but if those who read my blog are my friends or relatives then it will be totally shameful lol ). I know some may find diploma fairly easy but not exactly for me. I'd failed couple of subjects during mid term, but then retake the whole series of them, which took me more additional 6 months to complete. That was stupid, i know. Either way, i should feel happy, even though it was late graduation but still an accomplishment; little part of my journey.

Venue: Pullman Hotel

Jacky Studio (popular photographer in kuching)
Per photo $97. SIAO AR, your camera made by diamond?

Damn this photo is fugly, why just can't i fucking smile.

Bored

2010-09-19T01:48:00.000+08:00

I didn't know this a ritual of function for Moon Cake Festival organized in carpenter street . I always hate getting into the huge crowd especially when i'm in "kao-lui" mode. Guess what, i got really sweaty in the crowd yet need to hunt for food, worst thing is the food is so fucking normal like what the usual kopitiam used to be. Getting sweaty will always ruin my hairstyle, damn sick of it.

Boring/aunty/uncle place.

Without the invitation of performance, i wouldn't be here. It'd been 4 years back when the first time i went up to the stage. In fact, i had terrible stage fright as my self-esteem was long lost, presenting myself to the audience had always been the biggest obstacle in my life. Surprisingly, this time there was no performance anxiety and i realized i was going get used to the stage. Well, it's pretty cool when you could sing a song relaxingly, on the stage. Anyway, the performance was not really well-prepared, maybe i should put more efforts into my performance for the next following days.

Korean's food at kuching

2010-09-10T10:46:00.001+08:00

Kuching has become a lot of choices if you want to eat foreign foods. Of course Japanese's Sushi is one of my favorites, but Korean's food is not so bad too.

Korean foods are very little, like sushi. If you eat a lot then definitely you're gonna spend your money like water in this restaurant.

These are the starter foods; that means you have to pay even though you did not order it.

Korean's food is all about sweet and sour.

Except this.
Pretty much different than other dishes.
Beef stew + onion.

Eating instruction : Mix the beef stew with the vegetable.

Overall it was roughly RM170+, expensive huh? I did not ask the exact price for each dish because my friend footed the bill. I'd better shut the fuck up and eat.

Rejected by a girl. Version 1.

2010-08-30T20:10:00.000+08:00

The title above "Version 1" indicates the number of rejections i got from girls(Of course, this is not the first rejection, there are a lot more in the bygone days). Next time when i get rejected again, i will cover it in my blog. I really hope i won't come out such entry like "Version 2" again, please god bless me.

I met her 7-8 months ago then we did not meet again.
Until recently, i found her msn.
We chat.
We both seem ok to each other.
But not too much in commons.
I'd come to realize she is a good girl.
Cause she knows cooking, so do i.
Maybe everyday whenever my name pops up on her msn windows,
she will always receive a "hi" from me,
and then she has to spend her time to entertain me.
Eventually, maybe she finds me annoying.
So she decides to ...

"aNxie1y" is me. "yoyo" is her.

I have never ever been to prom night before.
It would be great if i have her as my prom partner.
Since that's so, never mind i can save my money for not attending it.
I have a weird feeling.
I don't know why.
I should have felt happy because everything is still like the same old days,
same patterns and same routines.
She just refused to go prom night, doesn't mean she reject me from my confession.
But i still feel a little bit depressed at the end of the day.
Maybe I'm not still used to the feeling of rejection yet.

It is never too late?

2010-08-29T13:30:00.000+08:00

When you think to become an entrepreneur, this video is how to initiate you to do so.
It's not easy than expected.

I'd turned 23 now but still idled for my future. Not long ago i attended an awesome talk from a entrepreneur, that was when my mindset changed entirely from "I should work harder in order to achieve my boss's satisfaction" to "The one who earns is always the boss, does he even bother to look at me even though how hardworking i am?". I have a friend who always share his ideas with me, how he manages to become young entrepreneur in the next five years. Yes, of course it is good to have such adventurous ambitions in your life, at least you set a goal to achieve unlike others who find themselves uncertainty in the future. In the real world, things are not as easy as expected. Apparently you see a lot of successful young entrepreneurs in Malaysia but behind the scene you know nothing. Some of them are supported by the government, pretty sure they can achieve the victory without flaw. On the other hand, how about those who struggle entirely from themselves? I would say, 30% based on effort and working spirit, another 70% is luck? Hmm .. correct me if i'm wrong. In fact, i'm not opposing my friend's ideas, just because that there's a lot of failed examples of entrepreneurs nowadays. Of course if you had stand a chance to take the action earlier, just go for it. In other words, you will miss the chance and never get a second chance to make a first impression.

I just figured out majority of people around me are involved in direct sales business, so do i. Maybe if i could only earn a little extra income other than actual working salary. Direct sale is widely diffused these days, almost everyone i approached they have their own company already. What i think is, if i can success a little in this field it will better than just nothing. In fact, there are a lot of external organizations which they have their own methods in doing their sale. For instance, if you are selling Insurance, Amway or Forever Living Products, you will definitely be working under a up-line. All these up-lines are the leadership of the entire external organization, they will then conduct all sort of motivational talks weekly or monthly to boost your knowledge and confident. What i have been obnoxious the most is the talk actually charged by certain amounts yet what you acquired at the end of the day is all nonsense. This is because they only put more emphasis on "How value the business is or how wonderful if you have succeed" instead of telling you "How do you manipulate the business, what is the methodology?", who the hell can win the F1 champion without learning how to drive it? Maybe different people with different point of views, they need motive power but for me, i don't need this kind of bullshits, I just need to know what should i do in the very beginning, that's all.

Well.. i guess thinking is easy, acting is difficult, and to put one's thought into action is the most difficult thing in the world.

I have no ambitions and creations thus far, is it never too late to become a young entrepreneur?

INSTANT NOODLE

2010-08-14T01:53:00.000+08:00

Last few years my dieting is quite successful until recently i didn't know why I'm fattening, maybe i take too much supper? Whatever, this is so fucked up as for the one year efforts now all gone down the drain. I was intend to sleep earlier to escape from the hunger but i fucking dota-ed for one hour, which means i'm now famish and craving for food. Damn it. Since then, now i'm going to introduce you some delicious instant noodles from unaco(kuching outlet store) at the meantime also let the food i ate just now digesting.

Beef Noodle. RM5.50

Another favor (I forgot -_-)

Another another favor RM2.20 but without meats.

This is not a random post, seriously they are really delicious!

♓ – Pisces

2010-08-08T19:46:00.000+08:00

I detested people who judge my characteristic by reading astrology. Before i was not really into such stupid thingy because i think life is not all about reading horoscope. After i had spent quite a little bit time to understand how astrology exists and also figured out my own zodiac sign, my mindset changed. Undoubtedly, the astrology theory is like 70% out of 100% true to my characteristic and eventually it made no sense for me not to believe in it. Anyway, after reading through a lot of websites regarding astrology, let me briefly describe myself as in a basic traits of Pisces sign.

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Quote From gogohoroscope

The young Pisces are adventurous, ambitious, impulsive, enthusiastic and full of energy. The Pisces are pioneers both in thought and action, very open to new ideas and a lover of freedom. These people possess a curiously natural understanding, which they do not obtain from books or study. They easily acquire, or rather absorb, knowledge, especially of the history of countries, travel, research, and like subject.

Although by nature generous, yet they are usually over-anxious about money matters, and inclined to worry about what their future position in life may be. This state of mind is largely due to their dislike and dread of being dependent on others more than from any love of money.

They can easily be irritated by slowness or moderation in their companions and, though themselves sensitive, ride roughshod over the sensitivities of others. These qualities make them, however, much misunderstood, and they are often considered dose in money matters when in reality they are not.

People born in this period often go back on their promises, especially on questions of money. They promise to give, on the impulse of the moment, but if they have time for reflection then the tear of future poverty forces them, as rule, to break their promise or give perhaps, only one hah of what they had stipulated. From that point of view people born in this period should try to exercise an iron self-control, to discipline the qualities and tendencies of their character to the advantage, not the detriment, of the society in which they move.

These people are also more mentally ambitious than otherwise. They may know their subject well in their mind, but they will hesitate and undervalue their own individuality if they find they have to put it to a test in any public manner.

Many artists, musicians and literary people are born m this period, but they must receive great encouragement ever to make the best of themselves.

These people are very devoted to their friends or to any cause they take up, provided they feel they are trusted or looked up to. They are generally successful in ail positions of responsibility, bat at the same time they are not inclined to push themselves forward, and usually wait to be asked before giving their opinions.

The strongest and weakest characters are found in this sign. Some are inclined to gratify their innate sense of luxury and self-indulgence and, if this side of the nature is the one that controls, they are likely to be too easy-going, to be too receptive to their surroundings, to become influenced by false friends, to give way to fraudulent schemes and in some cases are inclined to become addicted to drugs or drink.

If, however, persons born in this part of the year find some purpose worth living for, they rise to the emergency as no others can. These are the people that one meets sometimes in Life who surprise their friends by their sudden change of character. Pisceans are shy. Other people think they are mysterious, or just confused, but a Pisces can sort out other people's troubles.

All people who were born in this sign are highly emotional. If they belong to the weak side of it, they are easily influenced by the people with whom they are thrown into contact, but if they belong to the stronger side, their emotional nature can lift them up to any height.

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I'm sorry for those readers who find it "too long to read" may just skip the entire paragraph and click on the link above(You may check your zodiac sign too). The quotation simply described my trait. Astrology has been really helpful to me, everytime when i am on a crush i would find out her zodiac sign and read about our love compatibility. I do not mean in term of zodiac sign compatibility, what i mean is i will study her personality traits before i approach her, perhaps i can understand her better in the first place, so that our communication won't encounter any barriers later. Although i have not made a success yet but trust me, sometimes this helped. In conclusion, i therefore reaffirm again love/life is not all about reading horoscope. I still do not fully believe in reading horoscope that can help to build relationship without going through any ups and downs. Couple that experiences a lot of hardships and at the end they got to be together forever and ever, that's what we called the Perfect Couple. As the saying goes, it's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds. But when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call you and I.

2010-07-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

SMK ARANG

How do you usually feel when visiting your secondary school like after leaving it for years? I've been walking around to reminisce those happy days but none of any memory is remained. For your information, I've been sleeping in the class since form 3 till form 5 like nobody business. Simply unbelievable I'm now in the line of education. This was why my school life was as dull as ditch-water, unlike others they had their lovely flings .. etc. I just fucking cannot find something memorable in my school. Why am i so fail? 3 years are like few blinks of an eye.

I was actually there to collect my SPM certificate to satisfy my university requirement. Before that i was using its result slip instead of original copy, now i'm going for an entire loan which might need the original one as well. Now i've my certificate with me, it's totally horrible. Let the sleeping-3-years-in-the-class tells.

2010-07-27T04:40:00.000+08:00

(I am like kinda blank of what to write on my blog.. so I'm merging all the drafts up to collide the post become one ..it's kinda random though haha hopefully you're on the track)

SCHOOL SOON (╥﹏╥)

After staying away from working about one month, i did not expect my life has been really monotonous. Everyone's life is like ups and downs, but mine is totally dull. Well, i just wish something special to happen. Not miracle, but things that i achieve very long has eventually come to a satisfied outcome. Last few days i went to Swinburne University for course inquiry, their bachelor of degrees are kind of costly though(i.e RM35k MAX), still worth thinking twice because they do provide a lot of interesting programmes such as student exchange course from Kuching to Melbourne(WOW my favorite city) if you have obtained flying colors in your results.

Cut down smoking you dumbshit ¯\(°_o)/¯

Just found out xiaxue's latest post is so meaningful and helpful to people who smoke. Check out xiaxue's motivational poster, it made perfect sense and smoker fucking go read it, and people who want to anti-smoker just forward the post to them(smoker). I fucking hate smoker seriously, i mean what's the point of smoking? Please don't fucking come to tell smoking cope loneliness/emptiness/boreness that is fucking make no sense and ridiculous, u cannot go fuck prostitute? u cannot play game games? (e.g. dota), u cannot go fuck your wife at home rather than poisoning them with your fucking cigar? Does life is just all about smoking? NOBODY cares if you have lung cancer or whatever because you deserve it, what if unfortunately if he/she/or your son/daughter had the cancer which caused by you? How do you fucking pay for it.

Rainy Day ◕ ‿ ◕

I've been to swimming quite regular these days for the aim of losing weight. It was rainy days lately. Yesterday i went to swimming although it was raining cats and dogs. While taking little break before i proceed to swim, i enjoy the million drops of rain on me which recalls back those bygone days i used to walk in the rain where nobody knows i am crying. Well, time flied. I'd never have chance to fall into the drops of rain anymore since my routine is no longer the same as my childhood. I wish someday i could do my confession to my girl in the rain, how romantic.

Super duper boring ⊙﹏⊙

Spend little time on the beach as to refresh myself from bored face.

Love Story

2010-07-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

Everyone has their own love story. Why can't i have one too?

ESWC DotA 2010 Champion

2010-07-05T11:32:00.001+08:00

The Final Ehome VS DTS on the stage.

These few days the internet is entirely a buzz of Asian and European DotA play-style. Now China(Ehome) has clarified the fact that they are the world number one DotA team. They won the tournament without losing a single game and obtained the flawless victory. I've been reviewing all replays from Ehome, they are perfect in team fight as well as solo farming, their players are extremely talented on handling all kinds of strategy from opponent. None of the teams can beat them. It seemed that Ehome had put a lot of efforts studying every team's pick and strategy that eventually it will apply in countering the opponent in the competition. They are without flaw but i still believe they are beatable. Individual skill and team spirit matter the most.

It's just happy to see Asian's victory is such big tournament. Where the go Ehome!

ESWC DotA Final Standings

1. Ehome (China) Price - $14,000

2. DTS (Russia) Price - $7,000

3. MYM (Denmark) Price - $3,500

Download the replay pack here.

LINK : Full coverage of ESWC from gosu.

ESWC DotA 2010

2010-07-02T17:37:00.001+08:00

This will be little coverage for the Paris DotA ESWC.
(Electronic Sport World Cup)

After the long waited biggest DotA tournament, here comes the ESWC, it's now commence! I'd been gaming since the year 2000 until now and never get involved in any professional gaming-group. However if i do really stand a chance to participate as well as representing Malaysia to compete the ESWC, that will definitely be my most memorable year ever.

This time, ESWC is held in Disneyland Paris. What the hell, despite enjoying the high level game experience they can even play around in the Disneyland, how great!

The selected teams.

1. Aeon (ESWC 2008 Champion)
2. LOST (ESWC 2010 Invitation)
3. Nirvana.GiGa.int (ESWC 2010 invitation)
4. Meet Your Makers (ESWC 2010 invitation)
5. Eyes on You (ESWC 2010 invitation)
6. Online Kingdom (ESWC 2010 invitation)
7. CNB-Gaming (ESWC 2010 invitation)
8. The Elder Gods (ESWC 2010 invitation)
9. Bulgaria (ESWC 2010 invitation)
10. PlayLife (ESWC 2010 invitation)
11. Ehome (ESWC China 2010 Champion)
12. Tribal (ESWC France 2010 Champion)
13. Reborn (ESWC Iran 2010 Champion)
14. Nirvana.GiGa.my (ESWC Malaysia 2010 Champion)
15. Universal Soldiers (ESWC Poland 2010 Champion)
16. DTS (ESWC Russia 2010 Champion)

According to the rules, each country shall represent one team but why France has come out with two teams? Is it because the event organized in their home field? By the way, hope my favorite teams; Ehome, LOST, nirvana.int are gonna dominate the tournament and not to disappoint their fans the following days.

Link : ESWC

Time flied.

2010-06-27T16:35:00.001+08:00

During my childhood, I loved storytelling because all fairytale always come with an happy ending. When i was grown up, i had come to realize fairytale was just mystery which will never be materialized. These days as things that i had done with a lot of hard works and efforts would actually come out with discontented outcomes. And begin to notice that the older i am, the tougher life will be. I'm not talking about physical changes associated with aging or mid-age-crisis but things that we intend to do we have to consider responsibility. Things are no more working out like fairytale. Sometimes I felt my life is kind of momentous, perhaps i have missed out the most important thing in life - that is LOVE. I hadn't had a girl yet, i guess cash and appearance matter the most. Was wondering why i failed to get them, i don't see myself has personality problem, or maybe i was coming off desperately? It always hurts me so much when it comes to forget somebody from the scratch. Over these past few years, in those days of a certain sorrow somewhere deep within, i had grieved over my brother's death. Nobody was there to give me a lift, fortunately i was able to pull through everything by myself. I'd begun the realize the whole world has nothing to be happy of, but things that happened around me were only sad.

However, after all, at the end of the day i had found my soul-mate, it was music. There were some certain songs I have that either were so close to happiness or so good that they made me calm all over. Music gave me a lot of chills and accompanied me all over these sad episodes. Without realizing, singing had become my regular basic, it can simply move me to the state of being happy. I told myself i will become a singer in the future even though i knew this ridiculous dream will never be materialized.

This is a heartfelt singing contest program i have ever watched and it's just proud to see that it hits all people around the world. I've been catching the program since season 2 until now - season 7. I believed people who participate the contest have the similar meaning like me.

I have a lot of thoughts after watching this season. This episode was kind of different than all previous one which was recruiting old-contestant who was still willing to compete themselves again on the stage. Upon questioning the contestant by the emcee, they revealed themselves behind their current situation after they qualified in the program, i was pretty sad to hear that most of them have come to face their downfall and I got teary on 葉瑋庭's speech. I used to achieve a typical lifestyle where i can convert singing become part of my career, and after all, life might be much better but i was wrong. The fact is always the fact, singer can't earn a living (Please don't tell me Lady GAGA, only 1 out of 1000000000 people can be like her). Since this dream will never come true, i have gotta get myself back to social life.

My mindset has gradually changed a lot ever since leaving my high school until now - it's been 4 years. College life > working life > now going to University life. Well, right now i am thinking what kind of life i will be living in the future..

Writing advertorial blog post then can travel all around the world?

Every day is a honeymoon?

Launch a concert in 4D Mode! OH give me a break.

Multi Level Marketing ?
I'm not kind of good in interpersonal skill. Can i still work it out?

or

Employee?

Sometimes blogging/dota-ing/~~porning~~/youtubing/facebook-ing

Sometimes hectic like hell..

Sometimes Paktoh ...

Sometimes do romantic stuff ...

OR...

Dwell into the world of discontent.
Failed to get her again.

C ya to all work fellas

2010-06-18T13:07:00.000+08:00

After 15 months of working, now i am closing another chapter from working to schooling life. I've been puzzling around whether to further my education or just simply enter into the working world with my diploma qualification. Since the higher qualification defines the higher salary, i had finally made up my mind to compete my degree this coming august. On the other hand, I'm going to resign my current job. I used to hate this job because of some internal conflicts, but i was initiated to work on since the salary can be attractive sometimes.

In fact, i was thinking to write a formal resignation letter to my boss which is better than verbally to inform him regarding my resignation. Upon searching for the letter format in google, it was this particular letter's content has aroused me reading it. I LMAO-ed.

This helped, i guess it inspired me in writing my own resignation letter.

SHOW Luo Zhi Xiang 羅志祥 Promo Tour in Kuching

2010-05-31T19:38:00.000+08:00

Last few days the entire Kuching was totally a buzz of "SHOW LOU ZHI XIANG", people on the facebook were selling his original music album as well as the VIP pass where you are reserved to a particular space to spectate him very near upon his promo tour live performance.

I used to laugh at people who are so into celebrity, doing something insane like waiting at the airport or even hostel which they are going to stay, at the end of the day you get nothing. How miracle i was there lol. I've been watching "娛樂百分百" for 4 years, it was his major taiwan entertainment TV program. 4 Years watching somebody in the TV and now i'd stand a chance to see him in real person! Why not? Look at the huge crowd, they are desperately waited for hours and the flight was delayed from 10:30pm - 11:15pm.

I never expect kuching is filled with a huge bunch of die hard fans. Everyone was so desperate to see him.

I'd gotten everything ready, camera .. position .. and wait WTH he just passed by?

Waited for one hour plus and it was all gone down the drain. He was surrounded by all desperate fans and can't fucking see him.

The next day at Spring shopping mall.

All the floor is filled. Unbelievable.

You would see a lot of happy faces here those who had just obtained signature for their CD and this was the first time i'd been squeezing from asses to asses to reach the second floor. Amazing.

Youngster, aunties, uncles, kids are all gathered in such event. hey how about Sam Lee? Love his sentimental music, it always melts my heart.

Is there anyone going? Why nobody informs me when he is here on 29th?

2010-05-13T14:23:00.000+08:00

Few weeks ago..

Since when I've been initiative participating singing contest as my confidence has long lost for many years since. Under procrastination, i managed to memorize the lyrics in one day as tomorrow will be presenting two songs during the audition. On the next day, my voice turned horse and was expected that i couldn't perform well since I'd a sore throat for a week. ( i know it's an excuse but would have done better if I'm in good condition ;P ) I did my best and deserved the critiques and comments upon the judges - "You do not liberate yourself before you sing, your vocal is not powerful enough to send the message to us(the judges). But then since you have a unique voice you should practice more to achieve for betterment." Crap -_-, Well.. anyway, perhaps i should think this way, it was way better than they criticized me like - "You should not get into the line of singer, cause you're hopeless."

Watching this weekly TV program has become my regular basic. I started fancy on this typical singing contest program since season 2, and they are season 6, it's unbelievable. This has prove we the youngsters like to watch somebody who is ordinary and turn into extraordinary person, and one thing i didn't even expect this program is now recognized by all people around the world. I take this program as my singing lesson, when the judges comment the contestant i always put myself into the their shoes and learn from the critiques, opinions and mistakes. Seriously it helped! (I'm not kidding) Too bad, things i acquired from the program doesn't seem apply to my performance during kking audition.

These are chosen to enter the TOP 20.
Congratulation.

Well, i guess i have better be audience than performer.

What the hell i am talking about

2010-05-03T19:34:00.000+08:00

Wonder why I am at the phrase where all my friends are engaging, thought this suppose to happen in the late 30s? I'm opposing early marriage. No doubt pre-marital sex(i.e unprotected sex) is the major factor that leads to the discontent of engagement. Ask you yourself, do you love your eternal partner from the bottom of heart? The answer may possibly be "no". The one you get in the relationship may not be the one you love the most. He/She can be any of your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend who you most infatuated in the past. Thus, in order to take the pain away we choose to have a partner who acts as a replacement of our ex-lover, to move us into the state where we could forget them easily.

I know we should move forward and not to look back of life, but a fact is always a fact, you love her/him so much but he/she may not choose love you in return. It's 100% difficult to meet someone you love truly, but it even more difficult to meet somebody who willing to love you 100%. It therefore seems to be the most difficult task for me to meet my special someone, is it look matters the most .. or money? Loving and caring have been missing in my life for a long time where i find myself have dwell into the world of loneliness. Being so envious people who could go dating like nobody business, and do couple stuff that single person can't. I ever tried to get somebody else but failed. Maybe just because I did not put enough care or effort or coming off as desperate? I hate this feeling, whenever i start to love someone, i love her smile, her charming personality, her everything... when it's about time to let go, despite being really sad i have to force myself to erase every piece of image in my mind from scratch. I am so dumb.

Tell me
What to do.
How to love.
Who to love.
why love?

2010-04-12T12:42:00.000+08:00

Time wasting. Today i read Naruto's manga, few days after i noticed another two more Chapters were out. In fact, the manga is supposed to release weekly but then i find it just few days only, what the hell is going on? 1 week passed like few blinks of eyes? . Today i checked my blogger.com, then noticed i didn't blog for a month, the last entry was February 11th! What the fuck one month backed?

FUCK THOSE WHYS

2010-02-12T00:06:00.000+08:00

Word of the day : why.
Why i wasn't happy at my life?
Why i wasn't happy when everyone is happy?]
Why i wasn't happy at the reminiscence of old me?
Why i encounter so many obstacles in life?
Why i fucking need to be upset when she was attached?
Why i can't just be happy when letting go all those junk memories?
Why i can't be happy when i'm supposed to be happy?
Why i always cry without a shoulder?
Why i always take it serious whenever i start to love somebody else?
Why i always have to forget somebody else from scratch whenever things never progress?
Why i have to suffer the pain that others don't?
Why i can't find the joke hilarious but everyone laughts?
Why i can't just be an ordinary person but like a piece of trash?
Why i find everything pointless and meaningless to do?
Why i ask dumb question when i nothing to say?
Why i have to try so hard to lose my weight?
Why i have to be good looking at the time?
Why i can't be an easy-go-lucky person?
Why i am still idling for my future?
Why i fucking don't know why i failed so many things?
Why i ridiculously feel sad even though i am in happy mode?
Why i can't fucking be chosen to be the lucky one?

Pictorial entry

2010-02-06T15:41:00.000+08:00

Causeway bay ##

Li yen is a friend of mine long ago, we almost meet each other annually whenever she has her university samester break. I've selected a really awesome place to have a wonderful meal with her, It was the Causeway Bay Hong Kong located at Jalan song. I'm pretty dumb why i have to choose upstair, they are different restaurant but at the meantime the manger told us they were linked, it was really freaking me out as the unreasonable price never meet my budgetary convenience. Guess I'd run out of my mind eating all these ~~high-end~~ foods.

Blue Lagoon RM4

Starter meal, it's sort of fish and chip with vegetable inside.
Free of charge. -_-

Hot & Sour Seafood RM13.90 (Thai flavor)

Forgot what is this, something like "seafood soup with bread"
but honestly, this is really tasty as the oyster and the soup are perfect match in heaven lol.

Another shot. :)

Note that why i claim it expensive it's because such little quantity would cost so much and that's not reasonble, i would better go pizza hut instead. Pardon my poverty.

Random thought of the day ##

Since the year 2008 to 2010, i've been losing a lot of weight from 101KG to 87KG, this is no doubt i'd succeed on my hardwork diet. Everyday forcing myself to jog 30 minutes at the nearby park, cut down supper and oily food which took me half a year did not eat kolo mee. Sweat. It ain't easy i would say, for all those efforts and hardships i'd been through, now i'm gratified with the outcome. I can simply put on some fashionable clothing and it just looks good. I should have to be humbled but don't you think it's something great to emphasize? :)

Clearing all those 2009 year pictures from my mobile phone ##

Wonderful wedding ice sculpture. ##

Attended somebody's wedding dinner at Hilton Hotel.

I was wondering how much would it cost if i were to customize my own sculpture..

Camwhore time ##

RED COLISUEM KARAOKE

Forgot where was this omfg, probably at LINK pub or somewhere else -_-

Grece Beauty Cherapy ##

Actually i'm really proud of her(Hui phing) that she is now doing what she wanted to do. Thumb up and wish her all the way best.

Evelyn Tan, my online friend ##

This photo was taken months ago. I got to know her was when i leaved my comments on her blog? Eventually we did meet up each other at karaoke. Thanks to her for entertaining such stranger like me HAHA. Only meet her once, chat with her once. Wonder is she doing fine now ..

Another round

2010-01-25T18:35:00.001+08:00

人間茶坊 from Jalan Song

麻辣面（小辣） RM6.90.

Yum yum ..

人间茶坊 Jalan Song

2010-01-13T18:38:00.000+08:00

This is so fucking nice.

泡沫奶茶 Milk Shake Green Tea!

The only way

2010-01-07T19:51:00.000+08:00

This is the time the nightmare begins. I don't know how sad how long i'm gonna get rid of all these sad moments but i'm ready to take all the responsibility. I must be happy from today onwards even though my heart cries.

Christmas > New year 2010 .. what's next?

2010-01-05T12:33:00.000+08:00

Seriously i would still have to emphasize, "Time has passed so fucking quick". Why i keep repeating this shit on my blog because i haven't done something special throughout the year 2009. Something considered special is when you look back the year all the things are done with gratification. Not many people are in the state of being optimistic when you ask them; "Hey how's your 2009", but few would say; "It's my luckiest year ever, e.g. I've graduated and started to seek for better/proper-job, luckiest thing is i'd gotten my girl". FUCK, i envy them. Everyone comes out with new resolutions but i don't, because i knew that all my resolutions won't work out, so just skip and stop thinking about it.

I spent all my Christmas eves, New year eves, whatever occasion at club but has realized not interesting anymore. Firstly, you can't afford the unreasonable price for the alcohol (Ok lah im poor shit so i claim it). Secondly, you will probably die under the smoke. Thirdly, you might turn deaf ear while sitting nearby the speakers. But, besides clubbing what else better to do? Life has been terribly monotonous (Shut the fuck up i know i haven't had a girl). All these years i've been struggling so hard to obtain someone's heart but i failed. I guess i was designated by fate that i did not have potential in opening a relationship. I've been reading a lot of emotional and touching blog entries lately. One touching entry was sweatlee's, her 5th Anniversary. Just got to know something i didn't realize in actual life, a perfect couple is needed to overcome all sort of obstacles in the journey to success. In fact, i thought love can be very simple. As long as you truly love me, i truly love you, then coupled. But i was wrong. Another blog entry was by xiaxue, her love story. I'm not her die hard fan but this entry simply draw my attention to proceed reading. They'd put a lot of efforts to collide their two different worlds together, eventually they are now hushand and wife. Her love story was so tocuhing i always like to hear people talk about their love story, how they meet, how they become couple, how sweet. Everyone comes with love, everyone is happier. I come with nothing, i'm happier too because i have to.

Hopefully this year i could be better and not upseting all the time.

Uneven road

2009-12-08T00:49:00.001+08:00

I always come blogging during the long lonely midnight, it has become part of my virtual private space where i used to talk crap, express feeling as well as random thoughts. So, this blog is not being exposed otherwise i couldn't blog openly. To my surprise i have no idea how some unknown readers found my blog but thanks for reading such random blog.

I've been meeting a lot of random friends via internet throughout this year, it's really lucky to get to know them, imagine there are billions of internet users today, but who you met are one of them, isn't that lucky enough? When it comes to Love, is hard, is unpredictable. You might never notice you love someone until you have come to this kind of syndrome. Everything you do, everywhere you go, every touching movie you watch, every song you hear, every turn of your head, every move of your body, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eye and every breath you take always reminds you of him/her. If things happened as the way you want ( for example, by miracle/efforts you've successfully gotten someone else), then no harm feeling. What if things don't go smoothly? Unreasonably you would find yourself misery, just imagine there are billion people on earth and yet it seems you feel lonely and empty without the other. Funny how the whole world becomes depopulated when only one person is missing.

The most sad thing is when her/his heart is no long belong to you yet you're the stupid person who still struggle so hard to draw attention from her. You got teary when reminiscing all those past year photos, those happy, sad and crazy moments you people have been through. You cried because you know it's about time to erase a person's image which existed long ago in your mind, you can't accept the fact but no choice, you HAVE TO. Eventually, without realizing that alcohol has become your best friend in the sleeplessness of lonely night.

Time heals all the wounds, but how long it takes..

deep tired

2009-11-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

...

It was 8:30pm..
It was raining..
It was the night of loneliness..
I drove myself to "Ma zhong" park..
I looked at the wiper wiping the rain off..
I looked at the scenery outside my car, there was nothing but rain drops..
I wiped away my tears and got back home.

Random

2009-11-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

Ever since i was small, my mum always like to watch sad drama tv series, and ended up crying so bad. I felt that was kind of ridiculous, how could she cry for something that was so unrealitic. Now, while driving alone and turn on the radio, listen to the song, i got teary. I watch sad drama, i got teary. I look at my mum and dad, i got teary. Hardly watch drama especially ending whichever involved death, it's damn stupid. Things that suit me is comedy and taiwan entertainment show such as "wocai", i never miss a single episode cause i only truly laught once a week. My life has been monotonous, wake up and work in the morning, dismiss from work in the evening, I go to ktv with budies, club during weekend. It's like nothing special to happen, i don't mean things don't go my way, just find that somehow life is kinda bored shit.

People told me drinking beer sometimes release the sadness and sorrow.

That's not true. I turn into sleepy, and felt so empty.

I though the hit of bass can turn me crazy but no, looking at those crazyasses shaking their body only made me feel they are mentally breakdown.

I'd gotten drunk almost.

#Ah ti's brithday.
I hereby wish him Happy birthday, may all his wishes come true.

# Donny & Ah Kiat's Birthday.
I would suggest RED COLISUEM KARAOKE is a better place for partying. RM200 with one pack of beer, from 8pm-2am, reasonable right?

The room is kinda spacious. 10+ heads won't be a problem.

This shit disappoited me so bad, the penis supposed to be baked standing up, i'd been repeating to the bakary staff twice, "SAYE MAHU DIA BERDIRI". Sad they failed. -_- See, not very surprised anymore.
I doubt that everyone saw this cake for first time, cause they loled so hard.

Is donny's penis circumsized?

Ah kiat either.

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I officially annouce that i'm bankrupt for these continuous 3 weeks birthday parties.

Made a check on my facebook calendar, 2 more incoming birthdays. WTF

Happy Mooncake Festival

2009-10-05T00:51:00.000+08:00

Moon Cake Festival 2009

Did the pictures speak?

2009-09-09T21:26:00.000+08:00

I were invited to attend a seminar lately, it was introduced from a friend of mine who worked as a agent of insurance, Predential. First thing came to my mind was such a presentation must be something to do with member recruitment but no, this presenter really impressed me because he doesn't mention much about his career(Predential) rather than sharing his experience of life. I did not remember his name, arght who cares, it's not worth to remember either and what's important is, i had learnt something from him through his talk. He spoke a phase which made me took some times to recall.

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

It was my secondary literature subject! This phase had stored in my memory very long time ago yet he made me recalled. No doubt it was a meaningful poetry i'd ever come across. You know what? I'd been awaken by his words " Folks, how to make a good living? Well, when you walk onto a crossroad, which diverged into two ways, one way is filled with footsteps. It means that in actual fact you need to do what your boss calls you to do (as being an employee). And then you do. Fixed salary and won't go any further. Another way is totally unexplored, which means you need to create your own direction, for instance an entrepreneur." What made it valuably bear in my mind is because I've always confused of life. What path i shall choose, what life i lead.

Back to the topic, "How to do you make a good living?", The presenter divided into two methodologies. This chart below was actually shown by the presenter. (and i simply edited it so that it could be easily visualized in detail.) I doubt you could simply understand and distinguish the big different between these two divisions. He said, "an employee has fixed salary e.g. RM1000. After 5 to 10 years, what can you achieve? RM2000? or RM5000? No matter how hardworking you are, the only person who earns a lot is always the boss. I'd approached my career (prudential) and made my success 5 years after".

One more thing he mentioned importantly, Gap Analysis. This is a contrast between current and future reality. The current reality are things that are achievable. As for future dream are things that you dream for it long time ago but never become materialized. This is to analyze the two different worlds whether is it achievable or not, eventually this was what come up in my mind.

In this analysis stage has confirmed me. AM I HOPELESS?

I've been lately puzzled by all these stupid questions. Jialat Lah. "How to make a good living? What can i achieve after 5 years? What can i see the changes of myself 5 years after?" .. etc.

Back to reality, think twice. Not many people can make a success in multiple level marketing. Considering time/resource, they are all uncertainty. From what i have seen, only 1 out of 10 succeed. Agree? The 100% reliability and stablity, is always having a proper job. Direct-sale, whatever like insurance is always been obnoxious to me. After this seminar had changed my point of view, I'm not into insurance but just impressed by the presenter's talk, his talk truly make perfect sense.

Seriously, it is time i have to plan for my future. The silly, emotional, short temper and careless me is no longer exist, and now a brand new George with fast reflex, good handwork, skilled, sociolized, full agility, energetic and excellent vision control. I SHALL DEFINE WHAT IS "SUCCESS".

LET'S PLAY DOTA.

2009-08-31T23:56:00.000+08:00

I am looking at this small city i am living at. 31 August 2009.

Time has passwed very quick dammit yet i am still doing nothing, i'm just so dumb.
I am afraid i might feel damn lifeless soon.

1. Failed going after girls. GIRLS.
2. Start getting bored of things happen around me. (Work/life)
3. Hasn't complete my studies.

I had really lost my self-esteen when it comes opening new relationship. I put so much efforts on achieving a relationship but in the end i failed(I don't expect in return but just feeling sad all my efforts have gone down into the drain). Seriously i don't know what to do now, study? work? Having a relationship? I am fucking worked in a company that is paid me RM500 monthly and how the fuck i can survive with this income? I have been studying computing for two years and now i come out with 10% knowledge of programming, how the fuck i am going to work in the computer industry in future? I even find myself has no interest on working as a programmer and how the fuck im going to further my computing studies. Things start to seem pointless and meaningless to me, im totally fucking out of idea. I've been working 6 out of 7 days, how the fuck i have time to spend with my family or even girlfriend. Damn sick la oh my f*#(*$* god, feel like changing new job but worst thing is, economic in crisis what the 3*$( la.

I had read kennysia's commercial entry lately, was telling that life insurance is very important to one's life. As the saying goes, "We wouldn't know what will happen for the next minute" Not to think twice i quickly approach a friend of mine who is working as a agent of insurance. I was to make inquiries for "Medical card" some sort of heath inssurance. It come out with rm100+ monthly. LOL, my salary RM500 - insurance RM100 - living expanses RM200 - Outing expanses RM200 = RM0 monthly savings. This doesn't make sense at all. I've been knowing this friend for years, we were talking about our current issue like having a proper job blablabla ..etc, and suddenly morphed in our family. Without even reliazing i have been leaving my school life for almost 4 years(which means i am not small already) and meanwhile my dad is approaching his retirement soon. I have reached to the stage which i am going to take care of my family. OMFG i feel fucking stressed and deadly now.

I am looking at this small city i am living at. 31 August 2009.
Blink my eyes. Today day is over.