Few months back, I was taking part of singing contest and I got really nervous on the queue. A girl who came to me telling me that I was on the wrong queue cause I was assigned into another audition room. Since she was standing beside me so we started our conversation. She was quite an alright person and we both shared a lot in commons. After the audition ended I didn't manage to keep her in touch, but a week after I found her facebook on some fanclub which was relevant to her job. I had to admit I got a crush on her, in fact without realizing I developed feelings towards her. Every time when I wanted to talk about relationship things she would always go off-topic and morphed the conversation into common things like we always talk about. Nothing much special happened at the end, we both were just like normal friends that talked about the things that happen in our daily life.

As time pass by, we both got busy with our own things apart over the months and we didn't chat for quite some times. Recently it's been a whirlwind of turbulent emotions where I looked at her Facebook, those pictures of herself with her boyfriend, laughing and smiling, I was confused of whether I should have felt happy or sad. On the lighter note, yes, I should have felt happy cause they are such a happy couple. But somehow these happy photos are still constantly reminding me of her that I have lost someone really special, someone that means a lot to me.

I almost meet new people everyday because of my profession, many people come into my life and some leave it but the only one who left their footprint on my heart is definitely someone who hits me on the first sight, not in term of appearance but everything including personal trait and so on. Life today is not like 20 years back where I think every thing in life happens like fairytale, every story has a happy ending. It's no more. I've been went through all those dreadful moments all by myself, when I am thrilled that I achieved something remarkable, at the end of the day who cares anyway I'm still the only one happy with.

Girl, I might not be the one you're expected for, but I'm certain that I could love you 100% than anyone else. If god allows me to roll back the time, I hope it's not too late to express my feeling to you.

I'm just an ordinary person who wants to date somebody ordinary.